Suicide Note (Denki X Shinso)DISCONTINUED

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Denki's eyes widened in panic when he saw his diary open in front of Mina. He knew what was on the first page.

Dear Diary,

I really do hope I'm dead when someone eventually finds this. I don't think I could live with the pity I would receive.
Anyways, I guess I'm gonna be writing a journal now, just to vent, and rant, and to be annoying and rude because no ones gonna read this anyways!

Well to start I'm an idiot, everyone says so. All I do is fail my tests and somehow manage to scrape by in my classes. Even my quirk is stupid. I can't do long range attacks or much of anything or I'll hurt someone I'm working with. And if I use it too much I become more stupid than I already am. Besides all they'll ever see me as is a stupid piece of entertainment that happens to be able to charge their phones. Cuz that's all I am really. I bet I'm not even that funny. Can't I just die already?? No one wants me anyways! What can I do? Fail classes? Be an idiot? Act stupid? Well actually there is one thing I'm good at. Fake smiles, masks, facades. Acting I guess. But no I'm an idiot who decided I should be a hero instead of maybe going into acting where I might have had a chance. Actually no I wouldn't have had a chance. I can fake a smile but to be honest that's all I can fake. I can fake happiness and that's it. So somehow that became my whole personality. Happy-Go-Lucky Kaminari who doesn't show it but wants to kill himself Every. Single. Day. Yesterday I was sitting in my bathroom and my wrists were bleeding and I was wondering if I should do it. Just two more and it could be over. But I knew I wouldn't, and I was right. Cuz I'm a fucking coward. But it's okay. I'll just do it soon.

By for now-
Denki

Mina turned to look at him with tears in her eyes. She closed the book and walked over to him before pulling him into a hug.

"Please don't. We all love and care for you. Your not an idiot, and you don't have to act. We are here for you and i can tell Bakugou to not make jokes about grades anymore and to stop being a jerk. I've been meaning to do that anyways. But you get the point right? Your not alone and we are here for you. So I hope your okay with lots of sleepovers in your near future cuz im not letting you leave me okay? I need you and so do the others," she said softly into his shoulder.

Denki opened his mouth to say something but then closed it again.

Well this was unexpected. It's probably out of pity tho.

As if reading his thoughts Mina looked up at him.

"I know what your thinking, I'm not pitying you, and neither will the others. Trust me we've all thought about it at some point and can all relate to you even the tiniest bit."

Okay that was DEFINITELY unexpected. Have they all really thought about killing themselves before?

"H-have you really thought about it?" Denki questioned as he realized he was crying too.

Mina pulled him close and sighed.

"Yes I have, years ago, I still have the scars. I also had an eating disorder but I figured it all out. I had friends to help me and I survived. I got better, and I know you can too."

Denki looked at her, wait, scars? Did she really hurt herself too?? That can't be true.

And yet when he glanced down at her wrists there they were. Hard to see against her pink skin and faded over time but lines were itches into her skin like cat scratches tracing up her arm.

The stops there for a while. Crying into each other's arm. Just letting their emotions out before Mina finally spoke.

"We should probably finish grabbing stuff for the sleepover."

"Yeah"

They walked around Denki's room in silence and located his sleeping bag and some clothes, along with his toothbrush.

"Ok you good?" Mina asked.

Denki nodded and they headed over to her room.

By now it was around 5 pm so the others would probably arrive soon.

They set up Denki's stuff and chatted for a little bit. He hadn't realized how much he had drawn away from his friends in the weeks leading up to his attempt.

Apparently Midorya and Todoroki were together now. Mina and Uraraka had managed to create a plan to get them to confess their feelings to each other and now they were dating. Denki didn't fully understand how that happened but it was okay.

Also, Sero had somehow gotten on the news because he was swinging around town in a Spider-Man Costume and pretending to be Spider-Man. They eventually figured out it was just a high schooler screwing around and not legitimately Spider Man.

Eventually the conversation died down into a comfortable silence around 6:30 before Mina suddenly spoke.

"I know this is a bit sudden, and you don't have to, I'm not trying to pressure you or anything but can I see them? Your scars I mean? I know it's insensitive but I'm kinda curious."

Denki blinked.

"Um"

Mina looked away, "Im sorry, I probably shouldn't have asked. It's okay."

"No no your okay it was just random and I wasn't expecting it. Just...don't touch them and you can look."

He held out his wrist as she slid up his sleeve carefully. She checked the bandages around his wrists to make sure they were still tightly in place before she looked at the rest of his arm.

"Oh wow, Denki I'm so sorry I didn't know. I should have noticed my best friend was hurting."

Best friend? BEST friend?? Does she really mean that??

He looked over at her when he felt a water droplet hit his wrist.

She was crying again and she quickly wiped away her tears.

She looked up at him with determination blazing in her eyes.

"I'm going to help you no matter what Denki Kaminari and NOTHING can stop me from making sure my best friend is finally feeling okay and safe."

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