Suicide Note (Denki X Shinso)DISCONTINUED

6

They were all asleep

Should I do it?

I sit up and stare at the slumbering bodies of my friends.

They look so peaceful.

Do I want to ruin that?

I could imagine it, they wake up to find nothing left of me.

That would be nice, to just disappear.

That's not how the world works though.

I decide to just go sit on the roof. It's always been a relaxing place for me. Especially at night when I can see the stars.

I quietly sneak out of the room stopping only to grab a few Bobby pins from Mina's bag in case the door to the roof was locked.

The stars are shimmering above, happy and peaceful. No sign that somewhere down on the world below there are people like me just sitting on rooftops wondering if they jumped would they be missed?

I curl my knees up and rest my head.

Life really isn't worth all the shit we go through.

I'm lost in my thoughts so I don't hear the door open and close behind me until a hand rests on my shoulder.

He sits next to me and stares out at the stars. His scar underneath his eye highlighted in the moonlight. He looks at me.

"You know we all care right? It's okay to not be okay and it's okay to struggle."

I turn away.

"Thanks Mr Aizawa but how would you know that." I mutter not even thinking about my words.

He smiles and looks back at the stars, silent for a moment.

"I was just like you for a very long time."

I look at him surprised.

He stays quiet again thinking over his words before he speaks.

"People told me my quirk made me a villain. I let it get to my head. I got lost in everything I was told and thought I was nothing more than a worthless villain. A dunce, a runt to society. I wasn't able to keep up with everyone else when it came to quirks. Some of my classmates could use their quirks for so long while I only had until I blinked. I started to drown in self hate. I was only 12 when I first cut. The addiction only grew."

I stayed quiet while he spoke. My feelings displayed in his words so openly. He said the things I'm not able to voice yet.

"Hizashi- I mean Mic helped a lot, so did...so did Oboro. Nemuri too."

I smiled a little at the thought of a young Present Mic and Midnight hugging Aizawa and making him feel safe.

"Your friends only want what's best for you Kaminari. It isn't out of pity it's out of love. They care you and so do I and the rest of your classmates."

I needed to hear that but I didn't say anything. A silent tear slipping down my cheek.

My teacher pulled me close and held me while I cried. I curled into this moment of peace.

"We should go back inside kid. You need sleep," Aizawa mumbled.

I nodded and we stood up. He walked with me back to the sleepover and then left me to try and sneak back into the room.

I stealthily creep over to wear I'd been sleeping and lay down.

This had certainly been a very strange night.

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