Realisations - Tejran

|1.5| JEALOUS?

Teja's words pierced through his heart like a knife . He didn't know she had held onto something he had said in anger . He respected her ofcourse, he had seen how she had been from day 1 .
He wanted to go and hold her and knock some sense into her that how much she meant to him . Maybe she hadn't realised the extent to which she affected him .He had somehow understood what she wanted to say about the mocking thing And he felt guilty that he had not realised this earlier .

He wanted to clarify all her doubts but stopped himself . He was hurt too . She had apologized . Yes. But her apology also included a taunt. He was done with all the taunts she threw at him . It felt like could never have a normal conversation . She had saud several times that he made her feel secure then why all the questionings and doubts ?

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Tejasswi read the task letter once eveyone settled in the living room . The task stated that a few guests will be entering the house to promote their show . All the contestants in the house will have to become a statue and they cannot react to what they will do or say . The person who will give the most reaction will be directly nominated for the coming week .

She took a deep breathe after reading the file . Shamita , pratik and nishant instanly sat together to discuss while Rakhi was screaming how excited she was for the task . She looked at Karan who was sitting silently . She knew he was maybe thinking about the task .

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The buzzer rang indicating that the guests will be here soon . Teja was sitting on the red couch while Karan was sitting on the main large sofa such that he could see Teja directly .

He was looking at her , he wanted to assure her that everything will be fine and none of them both will be nominated . But teja refused to look into his eyes .

Suddenly Teja's expression changed looking at something behind . She made a shocked face .Karan was about to turn and see what it was but stopped due to BB

"Sabhi Gharwale , Freeze "

From the glass above Teja he could see someone entering . The first person to come in his line of vision was actress Niti Sharma . He did not know her but he had heard her name . She came to the middle and introduced herself

"Hi , everybody . I am Niti . So our film is releasing next week . It is based on the topic depression . " She continued when everybody stared at her

" Nishant Hii ! You are doing so good and everybody's proud of youu . " She looked at Nishant " I guess you guys can't talk . I think i saw deboleena in the garden .That's where my hero is , if you guys were wondering" She laughed and then went to bitchukle to get a reaction out him . He heard her ask him about his singing, albums but not clearly .

He wondered who the reaction teja gave was for . He looked at Nishant . It looked like nishant was thoroughly enjoying the teasing session going with bitchukle and thrilled that someone he knew had come .

" Teju" He heard someone say from behind . Teja looked ahead at Namish . Only she knew how much she was controlling herself . Yesterday only she had told bappa that she needed to talk to her people and here Namish was .

Namish came forward and bent to hug her .Even though she wanted to hug back she couldn't as that would count as a reaction . Feeling the homely warmth after ages that too at this time when she was loosing herself , she couldn't help but cry .

Namish broke the hug when he felt her crying .

"Aee, Ro kyu rahi hai " He wiped her tears " Teju, no crying please " He said wiping her face which was full of tears .

Teja looked at him like a baby asking for reassurance that all was going to be fine .Namish undersrood her inner turmoil and held hands to give her comfort

" Achha kar rahi hai Teju . I am proud of you , infact everybody is ,your family fans . Just do not cry okay ? " He asked her gently . He knew she never cried on small matters and if she had cried these last days so much it would have affected her alot . He could see her mental health getting affected .

Teja couldn't control herself more after hearing him . She decided to let the task go . So immediately hugged and cried more .

Karan was shocked looking at her and Namish . He obviously had heard of him but never met him . He was observing their exchange and he couldn't help but feel jealous . It looked like whatever Teja had been feeling she had poured it out to Namish . It hurt him that she couldn't do that with him .

They looked so comfortable and Namish was clearly more important to her than the nominations . He had seen that she had willingly given up . Karan saw them get up and go into the bedroom . He could see Teja sitting on her bed and Namish beside her . He fisted his hands to control the jealously he was feeling while looking at them .

His focus shifted when Niti came to him to get a reaction out of him

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BEDROOM

" You are okay right? " Namish asked her once the settled . She nodded

" Teju , Do not go into the zone you are going . Tell me what's bothering you "

" I feel like i don't matter Nami . I feel suffocated because everything i do is being judged . I don't know . " She sighed and kept her head on his shoulder . She needed this . Someone to talk to without being judged

" Mera bachha , don't ever think that okay ? You matter , to alot of people out there . And in the house Karan's here na . " He said as he patted her head .

" He doesn't understand what i feel Nami . I know he loves me , i know he's the only person for me here but you understand what i am saying ? I feel like maybe i came as a burden to him . He wouldn't had to get those bashings , negative tags and everything due to me . Anyways I was never his type, Don't you think Shamita is more his type than me " She poured out everything she felt

" Teju , Listen to me , Maybe Shamita was his type . But he loves you . He is with you because he wants to be okay ? Get that in your mind . If you were never his type he would have never continued with this even after all those bashings . He has chosen you despite everything . " Teja nodded listening to him . Namish has always been the one to make her understand things . He knows what to say and she knew he would never ever give her a bad advice .

"Now , If you want him to understand you Teja Then talk to him . Have a normal conversation . If you both , especially you , are going to taunt each other everytime you try to talk it out , how are you going to solve the matter then ? " He knew Karan wasn't a bad guy . He may have temparament issues but he geniunely loved teju and it was visible in his eyes .

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