🔞5EX🔞

So many questions

Yanni POV

I find myself sitting on a bentwood chair in the small and pretty coffee shop inside the hospital atrium, a large mug of now cold caramel latte untouched between my palms, with no memory of ordering it!
My brain is throbbing, my thoughts tumultuous and disorderly, bouncing around in my head like toddlers on a trampoline, utterly chaotic, whilst on the outside I appear as serenity itself, unmoving, passive and silent.

WHAT THE FUCK??!

How does a five year old little girl KILL a baby? Why would a child kill a baby?   I must have misunderstood her, surely!
Noah isn't Noah? Why would he hide details like that from us all...... from me!?
I'm furious, shocked and hurt. Hurt that my best friend...... my brother, has kept part of himself from me, from us all! I can't imagine how hard it must be to lose a sibling. I love mine all so much, despite my twin being such a monumental douche a lot of the time, but I'm certain I'd tell my friends about them. Why keep that a secret?

Do I believe him? How can I trust him? The fact is he's lied about so much and done some terrible things recently, I don't think I can. So many questions and so far, no answers.
I feel drained, betrayed and livid..... but also concerned, sympathetic and very fucking confused!
My head hurts, my heart aches, and my fists are itching with a desire to punch something so intense that I have to clamp my hands between my thighs to prevent myself from pounding on the table. I haven't ever experienced so many contrasting feelings at once, and frankly I don't like it. I'm a simple man, I like my problems to come at me one at a time, allowing my brain the time to think it requires to make good choices.
I have to make good choices here. I could lose my best friend, we could lose our careers....... I could lose the woman I love.

Looking up from my lap, my hands remaining between my thighs, I spot her. She is watching me, sitting on the edge of a large marble planter filled with realistic looking faux foliage. Huge coconut palms, split leaf philodendrons and Aralia plants provide a lush backdrop for the vibrancy of the peace lilies, birds of paradise, hibiscus and frangipani flowers. I imagine myself and Syd together in Costa Rica, Mexico or Venezuela, surrounded by this idyllic serenity, on our honeymoon perhaps, me snapping hundreds of stunning images of my beautiful wife.

Wife!!

I want her to be forever mine. As that realisation takes root in my heart and mind I become aware that Syd is making her way towards me and stand up, not quite sure whether to welcome her into an embrace or turn and run away.... again!
Just as I decide to envelop her in my arms and hold her tighter than I have ever held her before a voice to my left calls my name, startling me. Syd has heard too and we both turn to find Vinni and Weeze approaching me.
This is unexpected. I've not heard from Vinni or Eloise directly since the night in Syds house when she nearly took his eye out with the prosecco cork, when I wanted to pummel his face for threatening her.

"What are you doing here? When did you get back to the UK? How did you know where I was? Did you speak to Mrs T, what did she say? Can she...."

I'm cut off mid sentence by Eloise's signature 'finger in the face' and shush!

"Let's sit shall we, we can discuss it over some caffeine. I'm knackered and need the boost" she states wearily, heading off to the counter to order drinks, and honestly, she looks shattered too.

Vinni pulls me in to a hug, an incredibly strong bear hug which has me wincing, my wound still painful to the touch. Despite the discomfort it feels good and immediately negates all my anger. I have my twin back and it just feels right!
Sydney has frozen on the spot, a look of alarm and fear on her face at seeing Vinni and Weeze, apparently uncertain as to whether she should join us, which I understand, given all the previous interactions she has had with the two of them.