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So, talk!

Syd pov

I wake up with a crick in my neck and a throb between my legs, my mind working overtime as memories flood in. The feel of his hands and mouth all over my body, the taste of him on my tongue. The way he played my body like a piano...... swept me away, to far away places where wedding planning, work and all of life's difficulties cease to exist, replaced by only sensation and pleasure.

"Syd! Syd! Wake up. What happened to you? They're all still downstairs eating dessert, I'm here to check on you. I said you probably crashed out as you've been working so hard finalising all the arrangements for tomorrow" Laura tells me while rubbing my thigh through the bed sheets. Only then do I remember my current state of undress, can detect the heady scent of sex in the air, and of course, I notice my incredible birds nest hair in the mirror opposite me as I move to sit up.

"So!? TALK!" She orders in her most authoritative police officers voice. If I was a criminal in her interview room I'd be scared, but the smirk on her face and playful slap of my thigh tell me she is just being my friend.

I begin attempting to smooth my hair as I speak. "I can't lie Laura. It was amazing! I had the most fantastic night. He is something else, honestly! He said that if I fell into bed with him I couldn't be truly in love yet. To prove my love I had to resist his charms and deny myself, to not succumb to temptation, but I failed. He was so seductive, like Lucifer himself. I felt like Eve in the Garden of Eden, unable to resist, compelled to partake of that temptation. I can't marry Yanni yet Laura. I can't be a good wife. I can't resist temptation. I'm a useless slut, unable to refuse sex when offered to me. He deserves so much more than I am" I wail while pointlessly pulling the sheet up to conceal my shameless hussy body from her eyes, she's seen it all before.

"Stop that, right now! Dr Daisy would string you up if she heard you now. What has she told you about that self deprecation? You ARENT a slut, you are his everything Syd, you know that. He loves you, and you love him. You're supposed to be together. He is so patient and understanding, doing everything you ask of him to help you through this, even when he doesn't agree with your methods...... like this role play nonsense. He does it all for you, because you think it will help..... he doesn't by the way, but he goes along with it for you" she finishes in a scolding but gentle tone.

Things changed between me and Yanni 6 weeks after returning to Australia. I threw myself fully into finishing the biography, Yanni and the boys were straight back into the studio to catch up with the recording of their latest album and Eloise immersed herself in work immediately, working overtime to smooth things over with all 5:EX sponsors, promising free extras as recompense for their losses, and thanks for their patience and continuing faith in the guys.
Noah was charged in London with conspiracy to kidnap charges for his part in placing me in Harry's dangerous grasp but was bailed with special circumstances, namely, being allowed to return to Australia while awaiting trial so he could continue to fulfill his commitments to the album recording.

Things were very difficult between us all for the first week, Yanni flatly refusing to talk to or even look at Noah, forgiveness a long way off, if ever possible. He refused to travel with him, recorded his vocals separately from the others and spent the rest of his time at work locked in his studio. I felt for Noah. I kept telling Yanni that he had no idea how manipulative Harry was. I understood that. I had told Noah I forgave him for what he did. I was sad that I would probably never fully trust him again, but I was prepared to work on our relationship, for the sake of all our friends, as was he.
Yanni was having none of it, vowing to never speak to Noah again, cutting him off completely. That was the first indication that something was wrong between us. I felt that if I was prepared to work with Noah then surely he could too, after all, they'd been family to each other for 20 years.