P.S : Who loves you the most ?!

Moving forward

    " Someone once said, if you want something very badly, set it free. If it comes back to you it's yours forever. If it doesn't it was never yours to begin with."

-Hello my beautiful princess! George took me in his arms and was spinning around with me while kissing me hard on my lips.
-I am shocked what are you doing here ? I can't believe it !! Am I dreaming?
-No you are not, I am here and this roses are for you.

I felt that he wanted us to get back to what we were before, to that beautiful summer in the village, to those perfect moments between us, to the long conversation and kisses full of love and hope .

-Come let's get upstairs to your cousin. She cooked some sandwiches for us .
-Oh yes , I do love her cooking, just when it comes to sandwiches. I was giggling.
-Are you happy I am here? He was now studying my face.
-Yes, I am really happy. I said the truth, but something inside me was getting anxious.

After spending some time together, my cousin who cooked for us left the house with some fake reasons just to let us alone. We talked a lot, we had to catch up for lots of moments from when we were not near each other.
I was feeling so good in his arm, and I really missed those kisses. He really was my dream guy.

-So what happened in that night? I've asked him straight after we finished all our conversation and I've realised he was avoiding the subject completely.
-Nothing as I told you there were just few girl around me. He looked a bit nervous
-And why you had to be rude with me and raise your voice? Plus do you know I heard you swearing before you closed the phone .
-No, it was not for you and I just got a bit defensive. I felt like you are accusing me of something.
-I will be very honest with you,George! I am not happy the way you reacted, the way you talked and hearing those girls in the background it made me feel like you wanna show off what a man you are over the phone.

Somehow I was always good in reading men, and even if there was a difference of age between us, I knew that distance and friends can change you... or influence you in a bad way.

-I am really sorry if I hurt you. This distance is very difficult for me too. Sometimes I am questioning so many things as well.

We looked in each other's eyes, and we knew that this love will destroy us slowly. It was an impossible love, and my trust was gone. Something disappeared, my hope for a true love have vanished in the air.

-I booked the thicket just for 3 days. I am still not so good with the money and working abroad is not easy when you don't know the language.He said with a sad voice.
-It's alright.This time will tell us what to do next.

Our hugs were the most powerful ones. I was so little and he was so tall, I was getting lost in his arms. He was my everything and still I had an emptiness in my soul.

We decided to spend the next day just together. And we really made some amazing memories. I was lucky Viki was covering me with my mum. She pretended she had a fight with her new boyfriend, so I was the one to be near her and comfort her in those very hard moments. So my mum agreed for me to spend some days at her house.

-Last night together, should we just stay on the balcony and enjoy the stars.
-Yes, let's open that bottle of champagne and let's take some important decisions.

After hours and hours of talking, hugging and kissing we both felt that this is the end. At least for the moment. Till things are settling down for me and for him.  It was the toughest decision of my life, as I was still mad after him, but my trust was broken ... and him ... he was going again far away.

I felt in that morning while the bus was leaving the station and he was waving to me, that if this is a real true love we will end up together.
I had the trust in that time that this is just a bad chapter in our life and that he will fight harder for me. And that I will be able to trust him again, to find myself back and to return to him.

My heart was black completely. A long period I cried and cried and cried while I was watching over and over the movie "The Notebook". Because their summer story was quite similar with ours, I was obsessed with that movie.  Luckily in the end they did find each other back and ended up together.

                   "It's the possibility that keeps me going,
                                      Not the guarantee."