Our Second Life

Chapter- 2

Winter's POV

I woke up at around 6 in the morning and since then I've been blankly staring at the off-white coloured ceiling. It was much colder here in comparison to my hometown and I hardly managed to get any sleep last night. I kept moving around in my bed while various thoughts kept on playing in my head. Since the past few weeks, I barely slept a maximum of 3-4 hours every night and it was already taking a toll on my health. In fact moving into a new place pretty much didn't help in improving my sleep pattern whatsoever. During the day I could still keep myself engaged in different kinds of activities but it was the night time that turned out to be the hardest. Every night it was just me and the painfully bitter pangs in my heart that kept each other company. All I felt was a never ending darkness engulfing me entirely.

But I have made up my mind. It's not the end and I'm gonna start over again. Yes!! I have to start afresh. This is the reason why I have moved so far from my home. So, if I continue to feel pathetic about myself.... the feeling will only last longer. Therefore, I have to get up from my bed and start this new day.

Note to self- Remember Winter, it's only you who can help yourself. Whatever happened to you, is in your past and from now onwards you have to only look forward to your future. Lets have a new beginning starting from today !!!

So I got up, made my bed, brushed my teeth and took a shower. I still had a lot of unpacking to do considering the fact that I spent almost the whole of last evening procastinating about doing things while I ended up doing nothing. I took out a few new clothes from my suitcase and made some black coffee. I looked at myself in the mirror. There were dark eyebags under my eyes and I had grown a lot thinner. But I wasn't worried at all about my physical appearances because in the end they were all a sign of the pain I have been through. I sat down on my bed and opened my laptop to go through my messages. I also went through the job portals where I had applied before coming here. I was really hoping for a reply from any of them when my eyes fell on this particular one. It was a interview call from a kindergarten school where I had applied as a teacher. I had already graduated from university last year and had been working as an assistant in a school library for the past six months in my hometwon. The message from the kindergarten school read that they reviewed my application and asked me to visit today at 11 in the morning for an in person interview. I was really ecstatic at this moment and was thanking god to provide me with an opportunity to start my career again.

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The interview went pretty normal. They asked me a few questions and I 'tried' to answer them calmly while my anxiety was soaring high up in the sky. But somehow the incharge turned out to be a nice lady and she tried her best to make me feel comfortable. She spoke to me in a friendly way and since then it never felt like I was in an interview. She was practically talking about her family, her kids and how she got into this teaching job. And honestly speaking after a long time it felt nice to have a good conversation with someone and it made me feel 'normal' again. They said that I could join from this Monday, so I had two days in hand to mentally and physically prepare myself to get back to work. I always loved kids and that was the reason why I applied here. It would be a complete new experience for me but I was excited.

While coming back to my appartment, I saw Ian downstairs with a little boy while they were getting out of the car. I was mindlessly looking at them trying to figure out who the kid was in my mind.

"Dad why is she staring at us?", suddenly the kid questioned Ian causing me to awkwardly look away.

Oh sooo Ian has a kid.....may be he has a wife as well.....

"Oh heyy Winter...", Ian smiled lightly and walked towards me while holding his son's hand.

I tried to press my lips together and smile back, "Hi, Mr. Woods."