Marry the enemy

1| The beginning

I was shaking and I heard nothing expect my footsteps. When I stood in front of his office I took a deep breath and opened the door. Slowly but swinging. I was still shaking a little but I learned how to hide it. It's important to know that, otherwise I would shake every time I see this man. This man called Grace Gomez. My father.
"Elena Gomez how can someone be that stupid?" He asked shaking his head lightly like he was disappointed.
"I don't know what you-"
"I don't wanted an answer" I was beginning to shake more and more he got louder with every word. Still I wondered if I should sit on the brown chair beside me. But I ignored that thought and continued to listen to my father
"You killed someone Elena really?! How can you kill someone and do it that bad? We have a family reputation to protect"
"I know father I just I was careless" He looked at me like he couldn't believe I was his daughter his nethertheless he looked at me like I wasn't. I felt like throwing up. I never really cared what he thought but this look he gives me. It hurts.
"Elena you will go to school from Monday and I don't want to hear any excuse from you it's now 2 years the people don't care at it anyways" maybe he is right but what if he wasn't? I stopped looking him in the eyes because I couldn't take that look. I concentrated on the click of the clock. I didn't wanted to hear his annoyed voice when he talked to me. When I noticed he stopped talking I only nodded and went out of the room pretending I was fine, pretending like my brain isn't exploding in this moment because of him. Because he made me feel horrible.
I pushed the door handle down to open the door and went away from this man. This man destroyed my whole life. And I have to call him my dad? After I went I heard how he argued with the person on the other line. Again I tried to concentrate on anything else just not him.
I went to take a thoughtful shower
I just needed to think of everything that happened a few minutes ago. My dad found out that I killed someone. And worst of all. Tomorrow is Monday. I have to go to school tomorrow. I had no contact to my friends after I left school so I have no friends and I definitely won't find any when my dad sleept with my last. So I have absolutely no friends, tomorrow will be fun. After I took the shower I went in my room. I wanted to cry but I also didn't knew why. Was something wrong with me? After I came over this thought I packed my things for school when I noticed I have nothing. Everything is in the garbage can. So I decided that I would go shopping. I mean if I already have to buy my school stuff why not buy decorations and clothes too.
But then I realized it's sad I want to go shopping with friends so I tried to contact one of my friends. She was really nice and didn't cared about what happened. So I asked her and she was excited to see me again so we will meet at 2pm. So I have time it's only 10am.
I ate something and made myself ready to go shopping but before I had to stop before my fathers office. How always I wasn't that happy to talk to him I am still not over his look but I ignored it.
I opened the door and entered carefully so I won't be to loud.
"Father can I have money I realized that I don't have school stuff" after I was ending the sentence I regretted it straight afterwards. I was scared of his answer.
"Yeah here" He was really chill and happy I wondered why he looked at me like he finally had something found to do with me. I was curious but I thought it's better if I don't ask.

The next day
*bip bip*
I heard the alarm clock ring. I tried to feel my phone by hitting my nightstand 100 times or something like that I am to tired to think doesn't matter I tried to feel my phone with just hitting and turn off the alarm clock. But I just couldn't find it. fuck What the fuck was that, I don't know what but it hurts. And still I can't find my phone its my first day and it doesn't start well. But now for real where the fuck is my phone.
Oh shit while hitting my nightstand I throw it of off the nightstand. Before I picked it up I had to pray that It won't be broken and I was lucky it wasn't. I wasn't excited about going to school but I wasn't scared either I am better today. I just hope my father is right and no one cares that he sleept with my best friend. Suddenly I heard footsteps and my door opened swinging and fast. My brother ran in and hugged me. He was 5 and the cutest
"Elena you will go to school today right?" Oh my I died because of his cute voice.
"Oh yes I will" I answered already excited for his answer.
"I wish you a beautiful day big sister-" he got interrupted by my mom.
"Johnny sweetheart we need to go"
"Coming mom bye Elena see you later" he jumped of the bed fast and ran out. A few seconds later he came back to hug me and kiss me on the cheek. After that he went and my thoughts where at school again. Oh shit I will be late if I don't get my ass out of this bed fast.
Before I go to school I have to eat breakfast and because I am pretty lazy and no "that girl" I will eat toast, for anything else I am yeah how I already said I am lazy.
After that I will choose an outfit. And go because I am already being late.