The Sundrop & The Moondrop

- Chapter 33, The Continuing Nightmares -

- MoonStar's perspective-

The nightmares haven't stopped, they just keep continuing on and on. No matter what Sundrop says to try and pull my mind away from this it always fails.. I feel how Sundrop felt all that while ago when he has those dark thoughts. It feels alone, sad and gloomy within my mind. No longer is it joyful and colourful but it is now a grey wasteland full of sorrow and hatred, not hatred from me but hatred from everyone else... the dream's hatred. This unwanted feeling has started to spread, first it only plagued my dreams but now it fills my head with darkness.

Every thought I have, irrelevant and relevant, they've all been flooded with this dark emptiness. Is this what depression feels like? I don't want to think about it right now. I wish for a way out, a solution that'll end this, an answer for myself... a way out, an exit.. a positive way of escaping this yet no light is at the end of the tunnel. The tunnel I must mentally walk through, this path I must face.. there is no light, no hope, no freedom for my mind. I do not wish upon dying as my freedom, I don't want to put Sundrop though that kind of loss again.

I was sitting on the bridge connecting the play structures together and the lights were off. Sundrop was still sleeping so I'd taken this time to be alone for a little while, it was nice. It's almost too peaceful in here.. I thought to myself as I looked around my eyes shining in the cold darkness. I was expecting something, anything, to happen while I sat here in the open space. It would be easy for someone to attack me from behind as my guard was down, it would be even easier for something of my thoughts to hurt me. Mental pain is often more effective compared to physical pain.. I looked down towards the colourful floor shrouded in the shade.

Sundrop would be waking up any minute now and he'd turn the lights back on, Sundrop would run up to me happily as if nothings wrong and he'd be.. joyful... something I cannot feel right now yet I pretend to do so. I haven't told anyone about the nightmares and I wish to try to keep it that way, I don't want to seek help, They don't understand it anyways. I wish to deal with this on my own with my own methods, if I told Sundrop then it'd make him upset too. I care about Sundrop I don't want that for him, none of us do... well, apart from Glamrock Freddy of course, he acts nice around him but I can see that look in his eye.

That glare tells me everything, he hates him yet he only tollerates him so I won't turn hostile. Glamrock Freddy only tolerates Sundrop so there's someone to take care of the daycare, he doesn't care. He doesn't care as much as I do.. I despise him for that, I despise the way he looks at me as if I'm an idiot. I despise the way he looks at Sundrop, Monty and Roxanne... he's just a liar.. he knows I know yet he's never changed the way he is. In the nightmares he's the one who always slaps me, the one who looks down upon me the most.. he's the one who started all of this, the nightmares are his fault.

It all started with a simple conversation..

- Chapter 33 End -