Sweet side (karlnap)

Ch.4

TW: panic attack

SapNap POV

I ask for his consent before I wrap my arms around him. He nods which is enough consent considering he doesn't talk.

After he lets go I do too. He gets out a piece of paper and starts scribbling down some words he turns set he paper so I can read it. The paper says crush?

I blush and say nothing. He starts writing again. Tell me please at least tell me if it's a boy or girl.

I shake my head no I say "no one knows not even my best friends I'll tell you as much as they know. He nods. I look at him and say "the only thing my friends know is that it's a boy that's all the information you are getting."

He writes something down hiding the paper from me. He flips it so I can look it says I'll tell you mine. I won't tell you directly but I'll give hints can you do the same for yours?

I think about it for a minute and nod he nods back and smiles.

Karl POV

I get out a fresh piece of paper I start writing small details
-brunette kind of reddish hair colour
-a contagious smile
-the best laugh in the world
-funny
-athletic

I turn the paper so he can read it. He looks at it and blushes I think he knows then he starts listing the things about the boy he likes.
He says "he has fluffy brown hair, the cutest smile, shy, kind."

I give him a confused look and he just smiles back.

After a minute he looks at me I'm still confused and he notices so he says "Karl it's you I like you."

I blush and write something down

I like you too.

He smiles and blushes. He then says "hug?" I nod my head

SapNap POV

I give him a hug and then it hits me the boy I like he's hugging me too.

I hear him whisper something very quietly into my neck while we're hugging he says "boyfriend?"

I push him off of me in a loving playful way as to not injure him because he just spoke to me! I tell him "if that's what you want." He nods and smiles then he looks away as he realizes that he's blushing.

Karl POV

I just spoke the first word to anyone besides my mother since fourth grade. I'm proud of myself but I also hate that I just did it and now I can't take that back. He heard me speak.

I write something down saying thanks for helping me cover these I didn't really want to explain to my parents I gotta go they texted me saying I need to be home. anyway again thanks for having me over. Also please don't tell anyone you heard me say something and to go along with that please don't tell anyone that we're dating I get bullied enough and I think it'd be too fast to tell someone already. I'm sorry for asking you to keep so many things a secret especially from your friends.

He looks at me and smiles before saying "yeah of course no one will find out about either of those things. I promise and you aren't asking me to keep too much I have so many secrets already I'll just add these two to the pile."

I giggled at that making a slight noise no one has heard me laugh since 4th grade again just Nick. I must feel really comfortable around him.

SapNap POV

Right before he leaves I make sure to ask him "would you be interested in sitting with me and my friends at lunch tomorrow?"

He nods and I ask what his class right before lunch is he writes health with mr.Matt (A/N that's actually my health teacher it's not what we call him but that's where I got the name.) I say oh same I'll find you after and show you where with sit. After that he writes are you sure your friends won't be mad that I'm sitting with you? I say "100% my friends will love you." That seems to reassure him. Dream hasn't bullied him in a while especially since Dream found out who my crush is.

————— time skip next day after health class on the way to lunch.

Karl POV

I hate that class so much for so many reasons I rush off to the bathroom before anyone can see me leave. I get to the bathroom and lock my self in one of the stalls. A few seconds later I'm having a full on panic attack I know how it feels because I have them so often suddenly I hear someone walk in and I notice the shoes they are Nick's.

I try to wipe the tears out of my eyes and slow my breathing to the best of my abilities then I hear him say "Karl I saw you run in here I know you're here please let me help you you seemed upset after class did something happen I know you can't answer but can you stop hiding please?"

I mean what didn't happen in that class. I come out of the stall red puffy eyes still hyperventilating. Nick hugs me without asking which is fine because I really needed that right now. He asks me again if I'm ok and I nod my head slightly.

He grabs my hand and leads me out of the bathroom. He asks me if I still want to eat with him and his friends I nod my head and shrug my shoulders at the same time meaning I don't know if I really want to but I can if it's important to you.

He hands me a piece of paper I assume he doesn't know what shrugging while nodding means. I write on the paper I don't know if I really want to but I can if it's important to you. He reads the paper and says lead me to where you usually eat.

I bring him to the math class. I see the teacher and wave at him. The teacher waves back and I motion to Nick the teacher says "oh hey Nick are you eating here with Karl?" Nick nods his head. I bring Nick to the very back corner of the room to where I always sit. We get out our lunch boxes and I see Nick pull out his phone.

SapNap POV

I feel my phone buzz in my pocket I take it out and look at it there's a message from my group chat.

——texts——

Dream😀:
Dude where are you?

George🕶:
Yeah dude we want to talk to you

Bad🤬🚫:
We always see you at lunch and we know you are at school.

Skeppy💎:
Come out of where ever you are and come sit with us.

Me:
I'm not joining you guys today I'm in the principals office waiting for him to come chat with me. Oh never mind gotta go he's mad at me for something.

Dream😀:
Whatever see you after school?

Me:
Yeah see you guys later.

——group texts done now texts between SapNap and Dream ——

Dream:
Dude where are you actually I know you aren't in the office I was there like 2 seconds ago?

Me:
I'm eating with other friends today.

Dream:
Ooh is it the nerd who you were talking to yesterday?

Me:
No just some of the other football guys.

Dream:
I don't believe that you hate them for what they did to your little friend.

Me:
Ok fine you're right I'm with the nerd but he told me not to tell you guys that I'm hanging out with him. I gotta go he seems annoyed that I'm texting which is understandable.

Dream:
K see you after school?

Me:
Yeah see you later.

——texts over——

Hey sorry about that just my friends being annoying and wondering where I am. And don't worry I didn't tell them anything about us.

He smiles and looks at the ground I see an assignment for one of his classes in his open binder. I lean over slightly to get a better look. It's a sign language class.

That's the end of the chapter I want to explain something I don't know if panic attacks are something that I need to put as a trigger warning I know that for me if I read about or watch someone have a panic attack it'll usually trigger one in me and then I'll have a panic attack which isn't fun. So I put it as a trigger warning if you guys would let men know if I should keep putting the trigger warnings for them or not that'd be really helpful to know I'll probably put them still even if everyone says I shouldn't just in case someone who is triggered by reading about them reads this but I just wanted to explain and if you have feedback on that feel free to let me know word count for this chapter is 1523