We were home now and I was still furious at Zayn because I was 'embarrassing them'. I just couldn't believe he said that.
I embarrassed them. Ugh. Well it's not my fault that I don't like all the publicity.
I stormed to my Louis's bedroom right after I got inside. I was the first inside and Louis didn't know I was in there on his bed until he walked in. "Oh hi Ka-... Holly."
I looked up at him and his face looked worried. I sat up and looked at him as he sat down beside me. "Do I really embarrass you guys?"
He looked at me, shocked. "What? Were do you get that idea?" he asked me, confused by my question. I stared down at the floor. "Holly, what's going on?"
I sighed and told him what had happened. "Y'know how Liam was tickling me and Zayn was trying to carry me out on stage?" I looked at him and he was nodding. I looked at my hands quickly. I was playing with my thumbs nervously. "Well Zayn told me I was embarrassing the band."
I heard him gasp. "What the fuck? No of course not. It's not true." he laid his hand on my thigh.
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I had locked myself in mine and Liam's bathroom. He had been pounding on my door for a half an hour now. He had finally had enough. "Holly, why the fuck are you mad?!!"
He's never yelled at me before and has never spoken to me so rudely. Let alone swore at me before. Wow. I really made him mad. But Zayn and him made me mad. Sure he's not the one that said those horrible words to me but still.
I ignored every word he was saying to me right now. I had some clean clothes in here so I decided to take a shower. I turned on the water and took my clothes off. The pounding was still being forced on the door. I climbed into the shower and pushed the pounding out of my head.
I thought about things in the shower. Things about life, love, and friendship. Harry said he found someone, but they're only friends. Who was he talking about? Louis was the only one not in love with me. Niall was when we met. Harry was my ex boyfriend. Zayn told me he loved me at the hotel. And Liam is my current boyfriend.
If Zayn loved me, why did he have a girlfriend. He told me that they were forced together by management. Was that true? He said they were perfect. Was he lying to Heather? Lying to his fans? Lying to the world? Im not sure.
Louis didn't love me. He was the only one I trusted right now. Sure he was all sass but I trusted him. He didn't tell my secrets. He kept them. Like a true friend would. Am I truly in love with Liam?
....Or was I in love with Louis?
No. I couldn't be in love with Louis. I love Liam. Liam Payne, and he loves me! I used to love Harry and now I love Liam. I possibly never loved Harry. I don't know. Why is love so complicated?
The pounding on the door stopped. Finally. Liam had left from outside the door. Finally? Why was I glad he was gone? I shook the thought off. Now I could be mad peacefully.
Nope. I was wrong. The pounding began again. But this time, softer. It was a knock. And the voice that was spoken didn't belong to Liam. "Holly, please let me in. You can trust me."
Could I trust him? I think so. No, I know so. It was Louis, and he's the one I could trust. The only one I could trust. I finally spoke after ignoring everyone for a few hours. "Are you alone?" My voice cracked.
"Yes, I promise you I'm alone. Please let me in, Holly." he begged.
I unlocked the door and looked out. He was the only one out there. I let him in and then shut the door and locked it again. I didn't say anything, but just sat on the ground again.
"You've been crying." he stated. He noticed my eyes were red and puffy. He was right, I had been crying.
I covered my face. "Don't look at me." I looked away, shielding my face from his vision.
"What? Why not?" he asked, confused.
I kept my face hidden from him. "Because I don't have any makeup on and my face is red."
He grabbed my hands and pulled them from my face. "I don't care. You're still beautiful." I smiled as he leaned in.
He leaned in farther and farther until our lips were just a centimeter apart. And then...
....a loud bang rang in our ears from the door. "God damn, Holly! Let me in!"
Louis didn't move from his position but just whispered, "it's okay." and then pecked me on the lips.
There it was. Louis Tomlinson kissed me, Holly Lukson. Holy shit. Did all the members of One Direction fall for me, Holly Katherine Lukson?
