IT'S NOT ME

Town

~in the carriage ~

Eeeh
I ended up going with the beautiful lady....

ow I actually don't know what's her name,
it wasn't mentioned in Alexandra notebook,
other then her being the duchess and the mother of the owner of this body,
I know nothing about her

Looking at her now in the carriage she does look like nobelty,
At least what I know of them from stories and history books

the way she's sitting in this very uncomfortable carriage is so elegant and calm
that she made it seem like she's on a fluffy bed
not a hard wooden shit
Even her dress looks so elegant
But it's kinda suffocating with the long fitted sleeves and the high collar...
it looks itchy too

thankfully I'm wearing just a simple strap dress with a corset

usually you'd think a corset is suffocating too
but I'm actually enjoying wearing it,
I always dreamed of wearing corsets and fluffy princesses dress .

What a stupid reason to feel happy

I lowered my head to the level of my feet.

I need to go back to where I belong ... nothing in here can make me happy

~croo croo~

The carriage stopped
and I rushed outside so I could start my search

Wow what a beautiful view
I've never seen such a lovely looking town

I guess I can just enjoy this moment

I kept staring at one huge Fontaine,
it was all white and clear
that u can see how transparent the falling water was
and it made such a mesmerising voice

it brought me back to the memories of my first home where I lived with grandma and mom ...

we had a small farm
mom was obsessed with it,
she told me that she build it especially for raising the cats,
I was really jealous of the cats back then
and the only thing that made me love the farm was our fountain,
mom told me that the water made her calm
so whenever I cried she took me to the Fontaine to calm me down .

~drop~

A tear fell to my cheek .
I miss you mom.
Suddenly someone hugged me "Alexandra my baby why are you crying?"

I want mom not you

I pushed her gently and dried my tears

* can we go to the boutique?*
                    I wrote

I noticed her eyes got deep
but she rapidly changed her expression to a big smile

"Of course honey let's go"

We entered a big shop ,
it was named
《 la dame》

"Welcome duchess Ayra "_ said the shop owner

So her name is Ayra ,
it's pretty
I guess it suits her .

The duchess kept talking with the manager while I was escorted around the shop ,
it was specified in dresses
which I totally adored
I wonder how many I can take ?!

I tried on some fiew they were all fascinating,
it was like I'm doing a lolita try on

Obviously I loved the ones with pastel colours
but the maids said they don't suit me

Oh well .....
with a face as majestic as the sun
it will be hard to find a suitable colour match ,

but the duchess wasn't bothered with my colour choices

"Try this one I guess tge colours will suits you"
the duchess handed me a golden gown it had multiple layers of skirts
and a very defined blouse
but it was a whole coverage
I looked at the dress and sighed
*I will try it*
I wrote before showing it to the duchess and the maids that will be dressing me up.

I guess it's a blessing having people help you to dress up ..
especially with these huge gowns that requires ...
corsets , stocking, skirts and chemise ... trying to wear this all alone will take an hour .

"We finished my lady"

" our lady is the most beautiful "

"The duchess was right this colour suit you m'a lady"

"The young mistress can steal anyone's heart with her beauty "

"You indeed look breathtaking"

"The goddess of beauty should be ashamed infront of you"

The maids kept showering me with compliments ,
I guess it never changes
whenever you go you will find people sticking and flattering the rich ...
even these maids aren't genuine
I can see it in their way of smiling.
in my real world we call it a duchenne smile

"Oh my! We forget to bring the mirror "
And just then a human size mirror was brought in the changing room

It felt like my whole surroundings disappeared
leaving me all alone facing yet again this bizarre face
that have nothing to do with me
but in a way it's the only reflection I have ...

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I Hope you guys like the flow of the story for now I know it might seems slow but I promise that you will like it