Ena pov
Everyone is leaving for their trip now, instead of me, Chan and seungmin
I gave minho one last hug as he got out the house and I locked the doors
I went into the kitchen and waited there for a few minutes
I saw Chan coming down the stairs as I went and jumped on his arms
"Woah chill" He said
I felt another presence near us
I looked towards the doorway and there stood seungmin with a weird look on his face
"Sigh, have fun. I'm gonna go to sleep. Don't bother me"
"So did Jennie try anything yet?"
"Well, she has some problems with hyunjin and always tries to start conversations with me, like in a weird amount of times and ways so yes she is on to something"
"That bitch"
"Chill, I won't let her do anything, and why do you seem so close with minho? I thought you hater him?"
"Ofcourse I never hated minho, he's like..itsuki to me. I just really miss itsuki, and whenever I see or talk with minho, I feel like he's itsuki so I got close to him"
"You miss itsuki right?"
"Ofcourse.. for everything that I've been thru, he was the only one there for me."
"I would bring you to him but he's on a mission in busan"
"Oh.. it's okay"
2 HOURS LATER
Chan went to his office to finish some work and I'm cooking a nice meal for him, sometimes he needs a break and something relaxing
He isn't eating at all, he sits at the table and only drinks water
I'm making some Japanese Ramen for him. Tonkotsu Ramen
I'm horrible at cooking and baking but I'll try
I think I've gotten better, I cook and bake with Felix and seungmin all the time and I've learnt a lot
I heard someone coming downstairs
It was seungmin
He came to the kitchen and drank some water
"You're really wifey material, you cook really well"
"Oh noo, I don't. It's just that I cook and bake with you and Felix all the time so I've learned. I used to burn every kitchen I entered"
Seungmin just laughed and stood there on his phone
"Aren't you gonna leave?"
"No, I want to stay here so you don't feel really lonely yk. Minho, han and Felix are gonna be away for some time so you'll feel lonely"
"Oh.. yeah"
"Ena, yk.. you really look and remind me of my sister"
"I do? What's your sister like? Can I meet her sometime?"
"Actually... she passed away long time ago, if she was alive rn she would be probably 27. She was an angel, she used to be feisty like you. But also a really good cook, she cooked tonkotsu Ramen a lot since she was born in Japan. She was like the only brightness I ever had in my life until I met the others. She passed away, like killed.. by bts."
"Oh, I'm sorry to hear that.."
"Now, whenever I speak with you or look at you. I feel like I'm looking at her, her name was arin. Arin was like a mother figure to me. My real mother was an amazing mother but she was miserable. My father used to abuse us everyday but my mom told him to only hurt her and not us. Idk where my mother is now, or anything but I just know she's happy and okay, I feel it"
"How did you meet the others tho?"
"I was running away from my father, he found my vape. He was willing to kill me. I was running all around and I bumped into Chan, he told me to stop and asked me why I was running. I just asked him to help me and take me away. That was in busan. He brought me here to Seoul, I told him everything and he trained me everyday. Jeongin and han were the last members after me"
"You..you used to vape?"
"It was the only thing that made me feel okay. It made me distracted from my thoughts.. my suicidal thoughts.."
"Suicidal thoughts huh? I was like that too once, but what helped me is.. nothing. Nothing helped me, I'm still a suicidal bitch who would just wish Chan or any other members would be on the edge of dying and i could sacrifice myself for them, I'd be a hero + dead. Life has been extremely hard for me all my life, I just can't take it.. I can't take it anymore.."
I said that as I was cutting some apples to make a smoothie for Chan and seungmin but I cut my hand really badly at the last part
"Hey, are you okay? Ahh.."
I squat down as I squish my hand and close my hands in pain
Seungmin went to get the aid kit
He came back rushing as he noticed the cut was deep
"Hey hey, the cut is really deep.. we need to take you to the hospital. I'm gonna go tell cha-"
"NO, don't tell him anything.. just don't.. not a single word I told you.. please seungmin, I haven't told anyone about those stuff and I trust you.. "
"Okay, I'm not gonna tell him.. but what about your hand?"
"Its okay.. I just stings a bit.. I'll just clean it with skme alcohol and put a bandage around the cut. If Chan asks, don't even say anything. I'll just say I hurt myself a bit, also can you clean the blood on the cutting board for me?"
"Sigh, Fine... but that cut is too deep.."
He took my arm suddenly to take a look again and saw my wrist
"Ena..."
