The Final Phase

Reflection

I never understood the expression 'crying your eyes out' until now. I always thought that it was an exaggeration of crying till your eyes pops out, but now I understand that it meant crying till you get blinded even by your tears. Hot, painful tears. Crying till you have no tears left to cry, till you are drained and your eyes is all dried out.

I hiccupped wiping the treacherous tears away. My nose was running but I don't care. I can't believe this almost happened to me.

Me! What the-

Almost...

"Drink up" Tony ordered but I shook my head, his face hardens. "It helps in washing out the remaining substance from your body system"

I said nothing, complying as i drink up the cup of orange juice. After emptying the cup, I gave it to him.

"Thank you" I rasped out, he only nodded watching my every move, to see if am not going to pounce on him again like a cougar or strip down for him.

I felt drained, I am drained. I don't want to think about what could have happened if Keji had not noticed i was missing at the party thereby bringing it to the attention of Tony who had been trying to talk to me since he got here but my deathly glares made him stay far away from me.

Someone drapes a thick blanket around my shaky form. I look up to meet the sight of a sad and concerned Kitan. My lips quiver as I try to control a new set of tears.

"Everything will be fine" she assured.

I said nothing, ignoring what is happening around me. We stood by the curb of the street, i actually sat down on the curb while Tony was busy on his phone, making some calls.

The party was still ongoing, it was really late in the night and nobody noticed what was happening.

Damilare made sure of that.

Keji wraps me in a warm hug while I bath in the silence.

Why did I take that drink from him? I should have known he was up to something.

"I just ordered a cab which will convey us back to school" Tony said walking back to where we were all hurdled together.

I avoided eye contact with him, squirming under his gaze due to what I almost did to him hours ago.

When i was told of my strange behavior, I felt like crawling into a hole in the ground or better still, the ground should open up and swallow me.

According to what I was told since I was unaware or let's just say unconscious of my behavior, I was involved in a form of 'forced' (on my part) sexual harassment in which Tony happened to be the victim while i was the harasser.

I recoiled as flashbacks like tiny fragments of what happened kept hitting me like a tornado. Images of me groping the poor guy and actually begging him for sex..

I went as far as groping him in places which I refuse to mention in public and even offered him a private strip show but thanks to a seasoned party goer named Kitan who knew something was up with me as soon as she saw me.

She was able to snap a dazed Tony out of it and also was able to let me keep my clothes on.

Curse that disgusting manipulating psychotic human! what sort of drug did he give me ?!

I held my head in my hands as i look down at the floor in embarrassment and disgust.

When did i turn nymphomaniac?

"Do you feel cold?" Keji asked from beside me. I shook my head. "Why are you shivering?"

I don't know the answer to that myself, i thought it was due to my cries but it seems am having tremors, uncontrollable tremors.