"Since it's our anniversary, can you fulfill a wish of mine?" Taehyung asks.
Jeongguk smiles, "Yeah Tae, tell me."
"Let's adopt a kid."
Jeongguk presses his lips and sighs, turning away from him.
Taehyung grasps his wrist, "Tell me why are you doing this." He says shakily.
"I – just don't want kids," his husband murmurs tiredly.
"You've been saying the same for two years now, Jeongguk." Taehyung swallows the lump in his throat.
Jeongguk tries to pull away, but the elder tightens the grip on his hands, "And I know you're not telling me the truth, you love kids. I know that very well."
The younger shakes his head, "No, you've got it wrong, I don't want kids." A tear rolls down his cheek.
"I – I know you're lying, I've seen you admiring kids in the park," he argues.
After a few moments of silence, he says coldly, "No, I can't give you this."
He feels a twinge in his chest at his tone. "Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't want kids," he says in a determined voice.
The younger looks up to him, Taehyung sees pure misery and agony in his orbs. "I – I..." he tears his gaze away from him.
Jeongguk looks into his eyes, "Will you leave me if I say, I don't want kids?" His voice is a hushed whisper.
Taehyung shakes his head vehemently, "No angel, of course not. But I know that you want kids, so /please/ tell me that why do you not want to adopt?" He pleads.
Jeongguk sucks in a breath, "I want kids, I would love to have a tiny being calling me 'appa'...... But look at me, do you think I'm fit to be a parent?"
Taehyung straightens up, unlocking their hands, "Is this why.....?" he trails off.
Jeongguk nods guiltily, "I don't think I can raise a kid, as much as I long for one, I'm a kid myself, Tae. I /can't/." His voice wavers at the end.
The elder places both his hands on his jaw, "Angel, why do you think like that?"
Leaning into the touch, he murmurs, "What if our kid hates me when he/she grows up thinking I didn't raise him well, that I made a mistake adopting him/her?"
Taehyung strokes his cheek, "Our kid wouldn't, you'd love them so much. You're full of love, angel. A child needs love and support, you'll give them plenty of it," he reassures him.
Unconvinced, he voices out his insecurities, "Tae, I still don't know how to tie my shoe laces neither am I good at studies and I can't even –"
The elder shuts him up with a kiss, he feels a bit disturbed thinking how his husband let his fears overweigh his confidence, but he will not let him succumb to his insecurities.
He pulls away, "Let's talk about what you /can/ do, let's talk about what you /know/...... You might not know how to tie shoelaces, but you know how to do a tie. You might not be good at studies, but you're amazing at sports. Angel, you even do boxing, you would be the favorite parent between us."
Finally, the corner of his husband's lips rose a bit, "I'm still scared, it's a big responsibility."
"You're not alone in this, we both will do it together." He laces their fingers together.
"Raising a kid is not a competition, Jeongguk. Neither is it an obligation, we will raise a child for ourselves, we will enjoy and we both might even learn something new."
The younger squeezes his hand, "I want a family with you, it would be difficult, though, a new member in our lives."
"Mhm it would be difficult, I'm afraid too. But if I know that you're by my side, I can do /anything./" Taehyung rubs his ear lobe.
Jeongguk presses a kiss to his palm, "You're this confident in me?"
"Yes, absolutely." The elder replies, certainly.
"Let's do it then, let's be dads." Jeongguk says with a newfound determination.
Taehyung chuckles, pressing their foreheads together, "You'd make a wonderful dad."
"You too."
Now that, Jeongguk sees Taehyung making Sooyeon's pigtails, while she makes funny faces at him, he feels a smile tugging at his lips.
"Angel appa, sing for me, please."
An unknown hole in his heart fills itself.
He's glad he fulfilled Taehyung's wish that anniversary, he feels blessed to have these two in his life.
"We laugh together, we cry together" he sings and Sooyeon claps.
("H-hi," Jeongguk greets the girl in front of him.
"Hello angel." She replies.
Jeongguk coughs violently at the nickname and looks at his husband who shrugs.
/Bastard/
"I understand why he calls you that, you're very pretty." She says and the Jeongguk feels flustered."
"What about me?" Taehyung whines.
Sooyeon taps her chin, as if she's contemplating her response. "You're handsome too."
"But angel is my favorite, sorry." She looks at him apologetically.
Taehyung looks at him then, with no anger but fondness swimming in his eyes.
And Jeongguk understands.)
- end.
(A/N: thank you for reading <33)
