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Summary:
The elder then again stared at the mole intently, the room suddenly felt hot, the younger could feel his palms sweating. Did Taehyung want to kiss –
Oh.
Oh.
You moron, you're hallucinating now. Good job Jeon. He thinks.
"Hyung." Jeongguk spoke in a small voice.
"Y-yeah," Taehyung uncharacteristically stutters. The younger sees his calm composure faltering for a second, as if internally struggling with something. As soon as he saw that, it vanished.
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Jeongguk can't exactly remember the day he started to have butterflies in his stomach just seeing Taehyung smile, but he can recall all the day when the elder had hugged him and told him, "Jeongguk-ah, we are in this together. You're not alone." Or the day he couldn't stop thinking how handsome he is. Or the day when Taehyung's Grandma had passed away and he cried himself to sleep, thinking how grief stricken, the elder would be.
Now, being a 21 year old, he knows he's in love with Taehyung. But he has mastered the act of 'I-am-not-in-love-with-Taehyungie-Hyung', so that the elder doesn't catch it. The reason for him confiding in himself is that he knows those feelings could never be reciprocated, the elder sees him as a baby brother, he has no chance with him, so why bother confessing.
Jeongguk is aware of how clingy Taehyung becomes, but it's not only with the younger, rather all the members. Sometimes, the elder flicks his chin, ruffles his hair and if the god is on his side, he is rewarded with the feeling of his plump lips on his cheeks too, making his stupid heart do things inside him. But again, he does that with everyone and the younger is not special, this is what Jeongguk is struggling to convince himself.
A small voice at the back of his head had once said, that if he comes out to Taehyung who's already gay, he might be able to move on or something better, confess his feelings. So the 18-year old, dumb Jeongguk had come out as gay to the elder, but when Taehyung said, "Gukkie, I'm proud of you, thank you for trusting me," accompanied with a hug, he knew he'll have swollen eyes the next day.
And Jeongguk is still dumb and hasn't moved on yet. I mean how could he, he practically lives with the love of his life, yeah distancing himself could have been an option, but he remembers the gloomy expression on Taehyung's face with his bottom lip jutted out, making him pout endearingly, when he had tried to cancel their Overwatch plans. Nonetheless, he never called off a single plan since that day. (His heart couldn't do that)
Back to the present, he's in front of his mirror trying to choose which earrings he should wear for the rehearsals today. "Jiminie hyung, come here once." He called out for him. When he felt footsteps approaching along with a creak of the door, he spoke up without looking at the door, "Which one should I wear –?"
