Letters | Regulus Black x Reader

Is it even gonna be okay?

Sad chapter after the funny ones, otherwise it wouldn't be fun-

TW// Self-harm is mentioned in this chapter.
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Y/N's POV:

This was a really great day.
So why am I crying instead of sleeping?
After all these years without crying, why am I suddenly crying?

My drunk self might have brought back some memories. Otherwise, why would I've cried when Regulus wanted to leave and why am I crying right now?

Since everyone was sleeping, I tried to not make any noise but couldn't afford to when it started to get hard to breathe.

Now, I was just crying without even worrying about the noise I was making nor if we were going to hear it or not.

Apparently, we heard me. Because Sirius came in and hugged me warmly.

"-Y/N, what's wrong? He asked gently.
-I don't even know why I'm crying, Sirius...!
-I... It's gonna be alright, whatever's happening, everything's gonna be okay. You're clean since last year, you can't do something now after all the things you did to stop, okay?
-Is it even going to be okay?
-Of course it will! Now, you give me this thing under your pillow.
I sighed and gave the razor's blade to him.
-Are you still clean, Y/N?
-Maybe...
-Y/N.
-No, I'm not..."