Letters | Regulus Black x Reader

I'll be cupidon for today.

Y/N's POV:

"-Sit. Said Lily.
I sat down and looked at her, confused.
-Do you love him? Because you looked like an old married couple back there and that was pretty cute.
-What?
-Forget about that one last part. Just answer the question: do you love Regulus?
-I..."

I didn't know what to answer.
Do I love him? Who the fuck knows?
I've never been in love so how am I supposed to know now?
I don't even know what love is nor what do we feel when we're in love...

"-I don't know.
-What do you mean, you don't know?
-Well, I've never been in love so I don't know what I'm supposed to feel if I'm in love or anything...
-That's even cuter, oh my god. Okay, I'll be cupidon for today. I'll ask you some questions and you'll answer honestly to each of them.
-Alright.
-First of all, how do you feel when you're around him?
-Great, I guess. I mean, we always have a good time together so...
-Okay, I see. Do you know his interests or something?
-Sure, I do. I even know the whole family thing because I'm friend with Sirius but I learned a little more during Christmas break.
-Alright then. What are his interests if you know that much? She said with a silly smirk on her face.
-He reads a lot. A lot of astrology books. He knows how to play piano, speak French but doesn't use it that much, he listens to classical music but he's into muggle music since a little while because I made him listen to it and he thought that it was cool, oh and he doesn't like to be with Rosier that much but this little bitch is avoiding him since he knows about us so nevermind. And that's not an interest, but I know that he's an overthinker.
-That's... A lot more than what I expected. That's great! Does your body reacts differently when you are with him or do you feel the exact same thing than when you're with Sirius or any other friend?
-Well, in Sirius' case I'd be the listener if he feels bad and wants to talk about it. But with Regulus I'd be more like a happy clown to make him feel better and forget about his problems. But if he wanna talk he knows that he can talk to me, so...
-That's not what I meant.
-What do you meant then?
-Do you have any butterflies or something?
-I do not own any butterflies. Can we buy them?
-I... Why am I still talking with you right now? Lily sighed. I'll make it easier for your dumb brain to understand. Does your stomach does like a strange thing, or do you blush when he compliments you or... does your heart beat faster when he hugs you or something?
-Oh, yeah. That happens very often.
-And... How do you feel when you sleep with him?
I blushed immediately. I wasn't prepared for this question.
-Well... I-I, hum...
-Relax, I won't say a thing to anyone. It'll stay between me and you.
I took a deep breath.
-I feel safe, being in his arms. It helps me relax and sometimes it helps me to avoid the nightmares. I sometimes look at him when he fall asleep before me and think about how beautiful and kind this boy is and about how life fucked him up yet he still stands with a big smile on his face, and with that happiness he wants to share with everyone and his really big heart who wants to buy gifts for any little creatures on Earth, even the one some qualify as bad. He's the type of guy who have trust issues but would help any person in need, the type of guy who could come home with a bird who has a hurt wing and says: 'I brought him here because he needed help' and get attached to it during the recovery time. He's definitely not how people sees him, he's way more than that, we just have to get to know him. So, yeah, I feel safe..."