Monster (Fairytail StingLu)

19 -Realisation-

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-Lucy's P.O.V-
When i was relaxing in the bathtub , thinking about Sting , someone knocked on the door . Only Wendy is in my room , so it must be her .

I raised my voice and asked , " Yes , Wendy ? "

" Lucy-san , me and Charla are going out for dinner and movie . Do you want to join us ? " The sweet voice asked and i thought for a few seconds before telling her , " Sorry . I'm really tired . Maybe next time okay ? Sorry . "

" Hai , its fine ! Have a good rest ! " Then i heard the door close .

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I was reading on my bed but suddenly my door was slammed open . It shouldnt be Wendy , she's out for a movie .

I flinched and immediately stood up . Dropping my book on the bed .

" Little dumb Fairy , do you know this ? There's a new couple in Sabertooth . " Minerva smirked and i glared at her , " Its none of my business . "

" Oh , i'm sure it will bother you alot . " She laughed slyly and threw a magazine to my bed . I frowned , why would it bother me ?

I took the magazine and read the page she folded . My hands started to tremble , a lump formed in my throat and my eyes were brimming with tears .

" Hmm , look at that reaction . " I heard her laugh and walk out my room , shutting the door tightly .

I clenched my fists , reading the article .

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A new relationship in Sabertooth

The picture by the side , yes ! You are definitely correct ! Its Sting Eucliffe , who was once in a scandal with Lucy Heartfilia ! He's with Yukino Auguria , what will Lucy do ?

The first picture , they are hugging so sweetly . The next thing we know , is ... Their lips are locked together !

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I couldn't continue reading , my vision was already blurred by my tears .

Sting Eucliffe , you liar . You bastard . You jerk . You lied , you lied to me !

I threw the magazine to the bin , remembering all his words for me . Especially just now , ' I love you so much . '

My tears rolled down my face and i sat down on my bed , hugging my knees as i cried loudly . Anger , sadness , disappointment and jealousy welled up inside me . First Natsu , now him ?
What the heck did i do in my past life for me to get hurt this much this life ?

I took my phone and put on my ear piece , blasting loud music . I just hope it will seperate me from reality .

I closed my eyes , took a deep breath and cried myself to sleep .

When i woke up , Wendy and Charla was already asleep . I looked at my phone again , it was 2:15a.m.

Great .

I couldn't fall asleep anymore so i decided to go outside for a walk .

I was still in my casual clothes ; black tank top and shorts ( slippers too ) But i didn't bother to wear a jacket over or something . I'm not in the mood to care about anything .

I walked downstairs and hoped i wouldn't meet him . Or her . Then , i bumped into someone before leaving the guild .

I just walked past that person , not bothering to look at who is it . To my surprise , the person grabbed my wrists and i turned around in annoyance . My eyes widened and tears were threatening to fall again .

Sting Eucliffe .

" Its already 2+ , where are you going , dressing like that ? Theres drunk men all around . " He asked and i smiled , shaking his hand away .

Why did he come back this late ? Was he with Yukino ? I clenched my fists at the thought .

" I think you shouldn't be caring about other girls when you have a .. Girlfriend . " I said , my voice cracking when i said the last word .

No , i can't cry infront of him .  I can't . I took a step back but before i could walk away he said , " Girlfriend ? When did i have one ? "

Gosh , he's so good at acting . I laughed humorlessly and i walked into the guild , grabbing the magazine with the same title which i read just now . I threw it to his chest and he caught it with one hand , still acting dumb .

He flipped a few pages and he said , " This isn't what you think- "

" No , it is . The picture is already there . " I cut in and it seemed like a deja vu . Hmm .. Oh , when Team Natsu accused me of betraying Fairytail .

" Really , i didn't do anything like whats written here ! " He argued and i looked at him bitterly , should i believe him ? Before , team Natsu did not listen to my explanation and i was accused . What if Sting was also like that ?

I frowned , this feeling of hurt still have not gone away .

" Lucy , do you ... Like me ? " He asked and my eyes widened , " What ? Of course .. Not ! No , no . No , i don't ! "

' Yes , i do . ' A voice inside me said and i bit my lip , ' I don't ! '

" Then why are you so .. Upset and jealous ? " He said and i stood there , frozen . Its like a cat's got my tongue .

" You said you loved me . Was that a lie ? Or was that not the love you were thinking of ? Were you just pitying me ? " These are the only words which manage to come out from my mouth . I hung my head low , tears fell to the ground and i clenched my fists tighter .

" Do you think they are lies ? Damn , Lucy . I've been struggling because you couldn't give me an answer ! " He raised his voice .

" Yes , they are lies ! If not , why would you hug and kiss another girl ?! Don't you like her ? Why did you even do that to me just now ?! People are only supposed to do that to someone they like ! Stop toying with my feelings ! " I shouted back and his voice grew deep , like a growl , " You don't even love me back . Its my business who i kiss , who i date . You have no damn rights to control my life . Toying with your feelings ? Don't joke with me . Do you even have feelings for me ? "

He walked past me and i can feel the cold wind hit my skin when he passed by .

' Do you even have feelings for me ? ' The question lingered in my mind . My knees went weak and i fell to the floor , my hand covering my mouth to stop me from the process of breaking down .

What feelings do i have for him ? Do i ... love him ? Did i get over Natsu ? Am i ready for another love ?

Yes , i do love him . I love Sting . I love Sting Eucliffe . I love him so much that i can't breathe .

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