Lain D'arcy

𝕿𝖜𝖔

𝕷𝖆𝖎𝖓'𝖘 𝖕𝖔𝖛'

I watch the two of them leave the four of us in the water.
The tension still thick in the air. It's not the first time Kiera has said something hurtful to Kylie and it bothers me but if I say something, the money her parents have been paying me to date her would drop and I'd have to lean on Milo for money to treat my sick mother.

She's been in the hospital for a month and a half now and not getting better whatsoever.
The money I'm getting from Kiera's parents is more than enough a month to get what my mother needs for her to hopefully get better sometime this month.

That's why I've been bottling up anger in me and releasing that anger at night at the gym.

I hate my life, I hate it.

I hate that I have to leave Kylie unprotected and in the hands of another man, when I could be the one to take her away from hurtful eyes, words and actions.
She's strong but she needs me, she needs support to stand and without me she can't do that.

I've been noticing the past weeks she's been very bad and been distancing herself from me, she barely talks to me or hangs around me at all.
Feels like she's forgotten about me.
And I hate that feeling, I need her too for fucks sake. She's been by me my whole life and for a fucking girl our closeness had to come to a complete end.

Fuck this relationship, it hasn't done me any good since the start, but I had to.
Milo has helped me enough and I still have to pay him back for what he's done.

I don't like Kiera, I don't like being around her or touching her the slightest.
I haven't actually kissed her yet and let alone having any kind of intimate relation with her. I can't even imagine having sex with her.

God just thinking about it makes me want to vomit.

She's not gross or anything, I just don't see myself doing her.
Feels wrong to even think about it.

I only like one person and that person is Kylie.
Nobody can ever change my mind and my feelings.
I've always liked her, always been close to her.
I'm planing on making her mine in the future, leaving everything behind, I want her.
For the time being I need to focus on one thing and that's to make sure my mother gets treated the right way and comes out that hospital healthy.
Even though the chances are very low of that coming to life.

But after that I'll leave this shitty excuse of a girlfriend and make things right with my Kylie.

I don't want anything more in the world but for these two things.

I'd be the happiest man alive.

"Where are you two going without us?" Milo interrupted the two as they were talking about going somewhere.

"Nowhere you need to concern yourself about," Kylie shook her head as she buttoned her light blue loose jean shorts, rarely glancing at me.

"Kylie I'm serious, you're not going anywhere without me." Milo says, drying his hair with a towel. Milo is my best friend, and I respect him for wanting to keep an eye on his younger cousin to make sure she's safe.
Lucian is still young, though he does his best.