Star Wars one shots

Parting (Luxsoka)

Ahsoka's pov

I'm finally doing it!

I've been living on Onderon for about 2 years now. During my time after Geonosis, I realised how bad the army's treatments were. Barriss died because of the bugs along with all the troopers but no one took any notice. I got so angry that I started self-harming. Anakin found out and decided that I should get a break, so I went to Naboo. Anakin and Padmé's frequent holo calls just made me yearn for something like it but I wasn't intent on breaking the code like him. 

I went with Padmé to Raxus and met Lux, sweet guy but extremely stubborn.

On Raxus we didn't get much time to talk but when I went with her to Mandalore to be Padmé's bodyguard, I saw him again! I'd been back on missions when we reunited and he kissed me! I was... disgusted is the kindest thing I can say to the idiot. We had something that night, something that made my heart burst into a low flame growing larger. I knew deep down that it was love.

We fell in love, we both knew it but it wasn't the time to tell everyone, anyone or each other.

Finally when I saw Steela kiss him, something inside me exploded again! It wasn't jealousy, it was the fact that he kissed her back and I did nothing to stop my jealousy. What could I do? I couldn't save her, I thought he hated me for that. I hated myself for that...

Then when I was touring the senate with Mr and Mrs Secret-Loves, I saw him again and there was another explosion inside of me. We talked, walked and kissed in his penthouse. I was shocked to see that he cared. But I was just glad that he didn't break my heart.

We went on like this for nearly 3 months before Rex caught us.

Lux and I were making out in his penthouse, again. I was in only my underwear and breast bind, he was in his boxers. Our hands were free to roam but that was the most we had ever touched before.

Suddenly the door was thrown open and we jumped apart.

"Commander, I've got the list of weapons dealers you wanted for the next mis-" He saw us and looked down in shame. I felt my lekku darken and saw Lux was pink and shoved his hoodie over my head.

That day was awkward and so was the time I told the council my decision...

"Don't fret, Snips." Anakin tried to reassure me, emphasise on tried.

"Oh yeah, maybe you should heed your own advice, master."

He was pacing and sweating more than me.

"Just get in the room!"

I did and looked at Master Windu directly. What I said was to be heard by him the most.

"Padawan Tano, summoned us, why have you?"  Master Yoda asked and I shifted my gaze for a moment.

"Masters of this Jedi Council, today I come before you as a Padawan in your minds but as a civilian in mine. I have decided that I want to leave the Jedi and become just a simple woman." I say and the silence after that could've destroyed 1,000 clankers in a second.

Through the entire thing my eyes never left Master Windu's eyes. I knew that it was the only way he'd know that I'm being serious.

"What are your motives for this?" He asks and I take a deep breath.

"The Jedi are peacekeepers but as far as I'm concerned..." I pause, "This war has made us violent. I have only know one life, a life where I could die at any moment. I know that it is because of these circumstances but I only know peace of mind when I am with Senator Bonteri or on Naboo." This got my lekku to midnight blue.