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Chap 23

　

　

　

　

Chap 23

I sighed. I had spent the weekend at Cassie’s with Caroline and got no sleep what so ever. We talked about Tristan, I told them about my encounter with McFly and Cassie told me about Richard. Apparently Rick asked Cassie out next Friday. We had a squeal at this and helped Cassie pick out two outfits seeing as she doesn’t know what they were going to be doing. We had a fancy dress if he took her out to dinner and then a top and skinny jean if he was doing something else. I opened the door to my house and walked into someone’s back, knocking both of us to the ground. I turned the guy around only to see a guy who I vaguely recognised. He had the most electric blue eyes I had ever seen and his shaggy black hair hung just in his eyes. His muscles where visible under the tight black top he was wearing. Before I knew what was happening I was underneath him and he pressed his lips against mine. So lightly that I almost didn’t feel a thing, but with so much emotion I was breathless. He was like a drug I couldn’t forget. "Josh?" I whispered.

I was shell shocked. I have been waiting for this moment for so long. I slapped him hard in the face. "You jerk!" I yelled at him. "I know I shouldn’t have kissed you, but I couldn’t help it! I forgot how beautiful you are." He leaned in closer to me, I wanted to kiss him again, but something was nagging me to look up. So I did as my instincts told me and saw a tear slip down Tristan’s face. I saw him give Josh a formal nod. "Brook?" he looked so hurt, I couldn’t speak. I loved both these boys. I thought I loved Tristan more but you cant ever forget your first love. "I know. First loves suck. Bye Brook." He seemed to choke out. I felt my heart rip apart. "Tristan!" I yelled out after him. My body hurt, my mouth was dry, my heart was beating heavily and there was still an idiot sitting on top of me.

"You never gave a shit before! Go fuck Rebecca! You had enough fun last time right!" I yelled at josh and shot out from under him. Harsh words but it was the truth, and I only cared about Tristan at the moment. I ran to his house and sat on his doorstep after he didn’t answer. I would stay here forever, I need to tell him how I feel right now.

Finally Tristan came out tear stained. "I love you, more than he does!" he whispered. "It’s too much Tris, With Josh back. I love you too, but I think we need time apart. When josh kissed me I wanted him to kiss me again. I shouldn’t feel like that. I need time to clear my head and not lead anyone on. We also spent=d so much time together, I can’t stand how much I love you. Waiting here outside your door made me realise this as well! We need to be able to stand on our own. Just for a little bit." I said, proud that my voice didn’t break. I knew it for a while, taking with the girls helped a lot too. I’m too young to fall this hard for someone, and I’m not mature enough either, if these past weeks thought me anything. I held my tears in but seeing Tristan cry didn’t help. "No Brook! I want you, it’s not fair!" he sobbed. I grabbed him in a hug and pulled him inside where I sat on the floor, holding him while he cried. "It’s for the best Tris. I’ll never forget you." "You cant go! I love you! I’ll change!" I thought back to a few weeks ago where Tristan stared at a few eighteen year old girls with lust in his eyes. "It’s not about what I can’t give you, is a little more than that. It’s not fair the way I have feelings for someone else." "No Brook! Without I’ll die!" "Tristan we’ve been dating for two months." "Two months, three weeks, twelve days, six hours and thirty minutes." I looked at him. "Really?" I sighed. I couldn’t do this, it breaks my heart not seeing him smile. The tears took over as I got up from where I was sitting. I glanced at my watch, 12:01 am. I sighed. Tristan got up and handed me a package from his pocket. "I still love you and want you, but were going to fast. I need to focus on being a teenager, not getting married." I told him. "We can slow down." Tristan said his voice sounding hopeful. "Please. I’ll be ready after this break. I need to be a teenager Tristan." "Brook.." "Don’t" I stopped him. "There’s nothing else to say." Tristan grabbed my wrist and pulled me into a hug. He kissed my ear lobe, then my neck and all the way down to my shoulder. I couldn’t help myself I needed and craved more of him. I tried to push him away but it was a feeble attempt. I finally pulled away and placed a final kiss on his check which was still wet with the ever present tears. "Take care, for a while. Don’t go mad without me" I laughed a weak laugh. "I love you. Friend." I said after a pause, testing the new word. It felt odd on my tongue as the words flowed from my mouth. "I love you, friend." Tristan smiled a small smile. I walked out the door and sat on the front step. I opened the box that held a small, beautiful silver bracelet that was engraved. ‘Never give up’. I smile through my tears and walked home. Happy birthday Brook, I thought

Chap song:

The end – McFly