365 Unread Messages [Discontinued] [Rewriting With New Characters]

Day Fourty-Two

To: Gavin Free

From: Ray Narvaez Jr

Sent: September 12, 2017

Why did I move to Seattle again? Why? Out of all the places on earth to go, why did I choose this slice of hell? I honestly and extremely regret this decision already, and it hasn't even been a week.

I miss everyone. I miss Austin. But I made my decision and right now I don't have the money I need to move back. I really want to move back.

Maybe someday I will go back and see everyone. Maybe then, we will have an amazing time hanging out and laugh and joke about old times, new times, and times to come. Maybe Michael won't hate me anymore.

I keep on listening to his voicemails and I have come to the conclusion that he is right. I am a coward. I am an asshole for leaving them all behind. I am every single thing that he called me; it hurts to admit it, even to myself.

I miss Michael more than anything. I miss the way we used to be the closest of friends, the plans we made when we were younger, the memories that will always live on the Internet.

I want to ask him to come visit me but I know he is extremely pissed off at me and would say "hell fucking no." I just really want to talk to him and hang out with him one last time.

Should I text him or call him? Whether or not I should, I think I will tomorrow. Wish me luck, Vav.