Held Captive

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Laylah's POV:

"How long has it been since you talked to him?" 

I shrug my shoulders and act like i'm focusing on my homework. The truth was, I knew exactly how long it'd been. It had been a month. I was fine, though. I didn't need him. I would just go back to how it was before him. 

"Ok, I've been trying to talk to you this whole time. Can you pay attention for one moment?" 

I give her a confused look, since studying and homework was literally the whole reason we were in the library. Good thing we were in the back so no one can really hear us. I close my books and give her my full attention. 

"So..I didn't tell you this because I didn't know how you'd take it but..I had sex with Chase last month." She admits, guiltily. The look of shock on my face was something I couldn't even fake.

"What? When?" 

"At the party. It kinda just..happened." She bites her lip and I can tell shes remenicing. The last thing I wanted to do was hear about her and Chases sex life but if she wanted to share I was all ears. 

"I'm guessing you enjoyed i-" 

"It was damn near euphoric. It was the best sex i'd ever had." 

I laugh at her dreamy expression and give her a weird look as she pulls her sweater off of one shoulder. I gasped at the bruise of a hand print on her shoulder. She gives a bright smile and rights her clothes. 

"I don't even think he knows he gave it to me." 

Knowing Chase he probably did that on purpose but I don't dare voice that as I see the first genuine smile on her face since the breakup. It always made me happy to see her happy. The bell rings and I quickly gather my things as we rush to third period. Neil intercepts us and sweeps me off my feet before putting me down. 

"Hey, beautiful." He pecks me on the lips and I smile up at him. After everything went down, Neil ended up forgiving me and it wasn't long after that before we were together. It all seemed so rushed but when you've spent everyday getting to know someone it can feel like you've known them for a lifetime. I couldn't be more grateful for finding someone who was sweet, caring and loved me for who I am. He treats me like a princess. If only my parents could see how good I was.

I bite my lip to hold back my smile as we walk to class, holding hands, like the happy couple we are. The rest of the day goes smoothly and as I get in Neil's car, I can't wait to get home and watch movies while cuddling up to his warm body. He looks over at me and a big smile graces his features. 

"What's got you so excited?" 

I buckle my seatbelt and look over at him. "I've been with Gwen all week and you've been busy with school, this is the first time we've really been able to be alone."

He nods, leaning over to peck me on the lips before pulling out of the busy parking lot. It doesn't take long before we pull into his driveway and I eagerly push my way into the house. I beckon him over to the couch and he hesitantly follows me. I lay down and wait for him to make the next move. 

He scratches the back of his head nervously and looks behind him. "I'm gonna go get the snacks." He turns around and walks away before I can say anything. I sit up and cover my stomach. After everything with Vixen, I hadn't been craving anyone's touch and I couldn't help but feel like I was broken. Like he broke me. 

I just thought that maybe if I tried it with Neil, maybe he could make me feel something. Anything. I needed to know that it was nothing. That it's all in my head. He comes back with freshly popped popcorn and a tub of chocolate chip and cookie dough ice cream with two spoons. He sets them on the table in front of us and grabs a blanket from the closet before draping it over both of us. I snuggle into his side and wait for the movie to start before I make a more apparent gesture. Maybe I just didn't make it clear last time.