Transient Waters

18

SeongHwa woke up before the Captain did, something which was not a common occurence he was sure, only to realize that he was no longer on the floor as he had fallen asleep but in the Captain's own bed. He gasped softly, filled with a sense of fear and horror as he bounded out of the bed and stood, rushing towards the back end of the cabin, slowly sinking himself onto the floor as worry settled over him. I did not even remember getting up to move. The Captain will likely not take well to my moving into his own bed. He lamented the realization and had no idea what to do. Normally, he would try and distract himself, but with the captain laying right there, it was hard for Seonghwa to switch his thoughts to something else, and left him wondering what he should do. Despite his sudden and still continuing freakout, a part of his mind, the far part that he had often cursed, reminded him that he had never really had this much freedom on the navy boat before, and he was not sure if he liked it or not. It was definitely unsettling to him, he had not been given anything to do, but he knew that WooYoung was now incredibly busy, and everyone had things that they were needed for. Seonghwa did not know how to feel about that. He missed WooYoung, he was worried that something was going to happen him and that he was not going to be able to help him...like the others.

Seonghwa shook his head. I can't be dwelling on these thoughts. He scolded himself. There are some things that I can do, even if they are not a lot. He contemplated, but it was obvious that there really was not. He had done everything already, last night whilst the Captain was out. He sighed, falling back heavily against the wall of the cabin. His eyes stared at the captain in confusion. I do not understand this. He is just...I do not understand this. He wanted to curse himself, curse his existence, and he just really longed to jump off the side of the boat, but he could not, and now he was confined to the Captain's quarters because of his lack of ability to ensure that nobody was around to see his attempt to throw himself into the ocean.

He hoped that Mingi was alright. Seonghwa did not know the elusive member very well, but then again he only really knew WooYoung, everyone else was confusing to him, and he did not know any of them. He supposed he did not really know WooYoung now then did he? He kept being a Pirate from me, I would not have judged him, surely...Surely WooYoung knew that...Right? The Omega just curled together, now questioning what he had thought before to not be a question. I do care about WooYoung, a lot, I mean...I know that he knew that, but...Is that...Is that just a necessity? After all, I know WooYoung cares about me. He brought me along with his friends on this boat, but...Maybe...Maybe it was just a feeling of obligation, after all I had protected him for over month. Not to mention I am sure that they have already figured out now that I was not some unlucky commoner. Seonghwa shook his head, trying to push the thoughts away, but they would not leave, because he was beginning to wonder...after all, WooYoung had been with him for a whole month and had not told him he was a Pirate. Then again, perhaps he had thought it obvious enough? After all, Seonghwa knew that he was a little bit stupid at the best of times, and there were not many who would willingly cross hands with the Navy. WooYoung had told him repeatedly that he would not be stuck on that ship.

The Captain woke up a few moments after that thought, and SeongHwa jerked his head up to stare at the man. The Pirate was handsome, of course he was, Seonghwa was not blind, and he smelled amazing. Another thing that Seonghwa would not allow to be spoken aloud, and more than that...he was nice. It was something that Seonghwa was not really able to understand. He was a Pirate, of course, and Seonghwa knew the stigma, but even then he was being overly curteous, no matter what the standards. Seonghwa was a sort of outcast on this stupid boat, WooYoung did not need him anymore...The thought still caused his heart to seize up a bit...and Seonghwa had no actual use. He did not understand why it was that they were bothering with him.

Seonghwa had not really expected anything outside of a cell when he came across the understanding that he was useless, and there was no need for him. Yet, instead he got to fall asleep in the Captain's arms, surrounding by his scent, and told that he could stay in this cabin. He supposed that was a form of imprisonment, since he could not leave without permission, but even then...

"I think I know what you are thinking," The Captain said softly, his voice jolting Seonghwa a bit, who had not expected him to speak. The other came closer to him, and crouched down next to him. Fingers gently pulled the fair from his face, brushing his bangs to the side. "And stop it." He said this sternly, it was an order. "You are useful, to me, to WooYoung, and to this crew. If nothing more than just your presence, which I enjoy. Would you really deprive me of that?" Seonghwa's cheeks flushed for whatever reason but even still he shook his head.

"Of course not," Seonghwa muttered under his breath, his eyes flickering down to his fingers which lay on his knees. "I am sorry,"

"No need to be sorry," The Captain said swiftly, standing and pulling Seonghwa up, ignoring the little yelp of shock that left the Omega. "I just want to make sure that you know, you are more useful than you think, even if you do not know why or how." The Captain shrugged a bit. "But it does not really matter if you know why or how you are useful, just that you are useful to me and the crew. Right?" Seonghwa nodded, a small smile making its way on his lips, happy that the Alpha had bothered to speak with him on this, not really sure why he was being so kind as to reassure him. "Right now I am taking you to see YeoSang. He demanded that you get a check up, and I want him to explain some things regarding secondary genders, consideirng you do not seem to know much."