The Fact: I Don't Love You

Chapter 32

Aaron's POV

We immediately brought Kathy to the hospital. Luke and Wendy seemed to know the situation very well. I saw Wendy immediately talked to Luke about it while looking at me or us as i have to say. Jessica and I are just like outsiders right here and one more thing is that we are actually the only ones who have no clue about what is going on.

Everyone in the there acted so normal like nothing really bothered them much. They acted so calm with the situation and Luke really knows how to handle it well, instead of panicking like he usually does, but I am still so clueless right now. I don't know what happened to my girl. She looked so frightening when she saw Jessica and I  coming towards her and the fact that she keeps holding onto Luke and the worst situation is she choosed him.

I don't like that fact. It was like he was the only guy that she can lean on while I was just some other guy. I just silently followed them around as they brought her to the psychiatry section. Why is this section in a hospital?

"Oh dear! Luke is Katherine sick again?" an old nurse came closer to us and asked Luke with the concern in her eyes. She knows his name without an introduction of himself. He must be familiar around here and the word 'again' can give us the hints that this is not the first time Kathy is here. The nurse must know them too. She even greeted a few members of the gang. Shit, she was here before, but why a psychiatry section.

"What are the symptoms?" she asked him calmly again while she was helping us to move her in a room and reminded a nurse to call for the doctor.

"I guess she had this fear and virtual images again" then both of them sighed out loud and quickly push the bed inside an empty room. The nurse instruct us to stay outside while she and the doctors will check her. I can see that everyone acted so calmly and they must have been so used to this. Wendy started crying and mumble some words to Kris about being scared that Kathy might get worse than this again and Kris just comforted her with sweet words that everything might be better after all. Luke only looks at Jessica for awhile before telling Kris to take Wendy and Jessica home first, but Wendy insisted that she stay for awhile, since Katherine is her best friend, so Luke has no choice but to agree with his sister. 

Finally, I had to bring Jessica home first because Luke refused to do so and he is the only one who can handle the problem right now. I would have fought with him about this topic, since I am the boyfriend of the patient inside that room and not him. Only this time was he allowed to stay since Kris had convince me to let Luke stay and I can find out about the situation later. I hope that after this I would be able to understand the situation more clearly.

"She had suffer from mental illness for about two years after you left. At first the signs of disease weren't clear. She just ignored us and be alone at home of a friend. Then one day, we received a phone call from this friend. She said that Katherine had many weird behaviors. She started to talk to herself, starve herself and scream out of nowhere and we had to trick her to make her be here. 

At first, the doctor said that she was suffering from depression and we should be with her all the time and helped her, but even when we did that, she didn't get better. She was totally traumatized by the bad memories of her mother's death. Then everything got worse. She was like crazy, screaming everyday and every time when she was awake. She was really scared of Jessica and we had to go through two years of nightmare. Luke was the only who can be with her all the time. He did spend a lot of time with her and it's the reason why he was the first one Katherine would find in any situation. 

Even you, I guess, somehow can make her scared, but Jessica is the worst. She was one of the reason whom made Katherine's mother die. That's why. I guess that seeing Jessica again made her scared. It was like a fear. It is some kind of obsession and a nightmare to her. I hope that you would understand it. She just stopped using the medicine for about one year. She is not always stable. " Kris said in one go and I started to realized and understand the problem. She is scared of Jessica, my sister and somewhat scared of me too. 

Luke is the only person she needs right now. What the hell is going on? How could it be like this? It feels like a tragedy. I am trying to change. I was just thinking that I could do it better, but I didn't know that she was going through a lot of hardship. What should I do right now? I must be one of the reason for her depression too. I tortured her with slaps, cruel words, and even rape her. Making her life a living hell. I was a monster. I...I...I...

Katherine was yelling in the room. Kris and I rushed to the room, but before I could enter the room. Kris stopped me and give me a signal of being silent. We both looked inside the room. Wendy and Luke were comforting her. And she was hugging Luke and crying. This is one of the worst feeling. Do you know it or understand it? The feeling of being useless when you are just right there, just one doors distant. I finally know the feeling right now.