Drawn by Fate

Chapter:34

                 No one's perspective

The pair ascended the stair well in an uncertain silence. No words, just the sounds of Gons feet against the laminate tile. Killuas steps silent as a kitten whisper. For Gon the ascension seemed to last an eternity as he stared at Killuas back. When a thought crossed his mind.

   "Is this how Killua felt? Staring behind me unsure of what will happen next?" The thought lingers before drifting away again in the anxiety he holds. It's a strange feeling to be so uncertain.

   Killua opens the door to the roof, the afternoon sun showering light into the stairwell. The light gave him a unearthly look. His body silhouetted in light. Like a pure angel had descended from the skies.

The pair steps out onto the open roof. The metal fence lining the edge shaking slightly in the breeze. They walk over and take in the view of the city. The air was warm like a relaxing bath after a long day. In what seemed like an instant any worries Gon was holding blew away on the breeze.

"Gon."

The dark haired male looked to his friend but an instant that followed, his right cheek began to sting.

   "I'm...not sure I deserved that or not." He says holding a hand gently to his cheek.

   "You did Baka. I know what it's like when someone is holding onto doubts because someone planted rumors or ideas. I'm not gonna sit here and let you beat yourself up over what Illumi said." Killua scolds with his arms crossed.

   "However, the whole situation has given me a...pause of sorts. Everything happened at once. Too much too fast. I'd prefer it to slow down." He leans against the railing looking to the sky. His white hair blowing around his face.

   "What do you mean?"

    "I feel like that should be obvious. You and your..." he clears his throat. "Advances." A red tint starting to spread along his pale face. "We reconnect over a year later and jump straight to the point. Normally I don't like to beat around the bush, but this, it's not exactly a thing to be rushed. Regardless of our emotions."

Heat rushes to Gons face and soon the rest of his body as realization hits like a tidal wave. "But aside from that, things need to be taken more carefully. Right now I'm..conflicted. Went a year without issue. Then in the heat of the moment I lost track of keeping my sister safe."

   "So...you do blame me?" Gon asks timidly. A hint of fear in his voice.

    "Gon no. No I don't." He says standing straight again. "Unlike you I'm not taking what Illumi said seriously. I have only myself to blame. My own excitement and hormones stopped me from thinking straight. Now that the excitement has died down, and I've let off some steam, my thoughts are much clearer."

   Killua stares off into the distance of the city skyline. Gon looks at him waiting for him to finish.

"A friendship like ours is a bond I hold close. The only thing I want to know for certain, is that what we have, what we did, is not just an act of lust. A year without a friend, a lot can happen. Time changes a person. I know you mean well now, but how am I to know for sure that we won't go on separate paths again? I can't be worrying about a relationship like that and protect my sister."

    He turns his gaze to Gon. The one who has been to hell and back with him. The one he considered a light. Looking at him now it's almost as if that bright light of joy and excitement has dimmed.

    Gon takes a deep breath steadying himself before speaking. "You are right of a few things. I'm not completely the same as I was a year ago. Like you I was acting on emotion. Some of the things I did during the past few days were driven by I'm not sure what. But something I am sure is that I refuse to leave again, and I will do all in my power to make things right again. So that we may be able to lead a normal and quiet life like you want."

     Killua gives a questioning look with an eyebrow raised. "Does that mean you plan on giving up your hunter life? If so I won't accept that. That's a heavy price for you."

    "Well...it's not quite what I'm saying. I wanted to be a hunter to find my dad. I achieved that goal. I didn't have a what's next. I had spent the last year wondering what to do. When I was chosen as an examiner this year, I thought it would be a chance to give me an idea."

    "That's when I ran into you." The tan male smiles. "When I came back and met you at the hotel my life lit up like a Christmas tree. I remembered I wouldn't have gotten as far as I had if not for you. There's a chance I wouldn't have passed the exam without you. I never would have gone to the arena or learned nen. You were always cool and composed. It drove me. YOU drove me. It was at that moment I knew I lost my driving factor when we separated last. I decided I wouldn't leave again. I would stay by you and Allukas side no matter what. Did I act a fool at first? Yes. As you said the excitement of everything was effecting me too."

    Killua leans on the rail patiently and intently listening to what Gon has to say.

     "When everything started to fall apart I was scared. Not just for your safety and Allukas. But I was scared I'd lose you again. Illumi made that fear more prevalent with each word he spoke." He lets out a sigh and his eyes fall back to the floor.

    Killua chuckles. "Heh. I guess you haven't changed all that much have you?" He takes hold of Gons hand. His slender hands a stark contrast to the tan males slightly larger ones.

    Gon looks up at cerulean eyes that would always catch his attention even in darkness of the night. "Let's take it one step at a time then. Ok Gon?"

   "Ok." The two share a small gentle kiss, the sun illuminating their bodies on that roof. In that moment their hearts sped up and began to beat as one. The small black haired girl watched in silence from the stairwell.

     "Much better." She says smugly before quickly retreating so they don't notice her out of bed. She takes joy in the fact of letting them think she didn't know everything. But something keeps her up to speed. Even when they don't.

(Authors Comments) I....don't know what to say. This is the end of Drawn By Fate. If requested enough I will give an epilogue. But that's not what's on my mind currently. I started writing this story in 2019. After watching HxH for the first time I fell in love with the characters. Their story and relationships. I like much of the rest of the fandom shipped Killua and Gon. So this story was a result. When I started I was intending to make a smut story. But as I wrote I found I enjoyed the actual writing experience. There were moments in time were I went a year or two years without anything. My lack of drive and getting stuck with reality. That much time and thinking ended up putting this story on a whole track that I wasn't intending. I don't even remember my original plan. This ending feels bittersweet for me. I feel I could have done more. Done better. I may try again one day. A DbF v.2 if you will. But I've got other projects in the works. I'm sorry if many of you came here for more smut. I'm sorry to disappoint. If you read chapter 10 you would know I'm not very good at writing it anyway. But I thank all of you who have stuck around since I started. And I thank many of you new readers for coming on this journey too. I hope you did enjoy.