Yesterday's

Coffee Shop

The next thing I know is that I am sitting in front of this person while mixing my cup of coffee nonstop.

Hindi ko alam kung tahimik ba dahil walang masidayong tao sa loob ng coffee shop na ito, o sadyang tahimik lang dahil wala ni isang nagsasalita saamin?

The awkwardness and dead air between us are suffocating. I want to escape this situation but I cannot grasp the strength to stand up and walk away.

Marahil dahil gusto ko ring manatili?

Nabasag ang katahimikan na iyon ng tawagin niya ang waiter at saka umorder ng karagdagan.

"How are you?"

Nailapag ko ang teaspoon na iyon dahil sa kaniyang tanong.

How are you? You should know better, Gavin.

Imbes na sumagot ay nagpakawala ako ng isang pilit na ngiti at saka sumimsim ng kape.

It leaves a bitter-sweet taste inside my mouth, just like what I am feeling right now.

"Aquí está su pedido señor, un croissant y una napolitana de chocolate. disfrutar!" magiliw na wika ng lalaking waiter na inilapag sa harap namin ang dalawang magkaibang tinapay.

My nostrils are filled with its irresistible scent, napakabango at nakakatakam!

"I remember, favorite mo ang mga 'yan." Nanlamig ako at tila naestatwa sa kinakaupuan.

Bumuntong hininga siya "I remember everything now Chel." nagsipagtayuan ang mga balahibo ko roon pero hindi ko pa rin magawang tignan siya.

"My memories are back, I-I'm S-sorry... I'm so Sorry Chel." hindi pa rin matanggap ng utak ko ang aking mga narinig.

Humagulgol siya nang humagulgol pagkatapos niya iyong sabihin, ang sakit sobrang sakit ng iyak niyang iyon damang dama ko rin dahil hindi ko pa man siya tinitignan ay nag-uunahan na pababa ang mga luha ko.

Sa tagpong iyon ay bumalik sa alaala ko ang lahat ng naganap sa halos limang taon naming pagkakahiwalay. Naninikip ang dibdib kong inalala ang lahat lahat.

Gavin is my first love, I met him in high school. He was a varsity player and every game niya ay naandon ako nakaabang at nakasuporta. I was his number 1 fan!

I was head over heels with Gav, we became close dahil na rin sa pagpapapansin ko at di nagtagal ay naging kami officially dahil sa pag first move ko. Desperada na kung desperada pero wala akong magagawa gusto ko siya eh!

Our relationship was smooth from high school to college hanggang sa nagkatrabaho na kami pareho, but it was not perfect because just like other couples out there. We had our fair share of fights too, but at the end of the day, we still fix it and stay. Ganiyan kami katatag... noon.

I couldn't ask for more, my relationship with Gav and with both of our families and friends was more than enough for me.

Years of being in a relationship with him are my favorites, he is an almost perfect guy that for sure every woman are dreaming to have. Wala siyang palya, napakamaeffort at thoughtful wala siyang anniversary, monthsary o kahit anong mahalagang okasyon na pinapalampas. Palagi niyang ipinaparamdam saakin na I am speacial and he loves me even on ordinary days.

We're living our best lives to its peak, nakakapagtravel kami ma pa-out of town man iyan or ibang bansa. We still do I love yous every day nang walang sablay, and even though he is busy with his meetings and work-related chores, he still finds time to go fetch me para sabay kaming kumain ng lunch.

And the most awaited time for the both of us came, during our eight-year anniversary Gav held a surprise party and both of our love ones were there to celebrate with us. It was that same night when I got engaged with the man I prayed and wished to God in this lifetime.