when in prison - han seojun

6.

6. Romance problems.

"THOUGHT YOU DIDN'T WANT TO SEE ME ANYMORE" I heard Dan say as soon as I walked in. It had been a few days after the last time we saw each other, my mom had forgotten about the fundraiser and I didn't even bother to remind her. I got to spend more time with my sister and Jugyeong too. 

"Sorry" I said indifferently. "Still mad because mommy forced you to see me? You know, that hurts." I didn't answer. I was planning on going to see Jugyeong since it wasn't even that late. But mom had other plans, and now I was talking with Dan. 

She looked pretty much the same. Her hair was down and her wounds were starting to heal. She was wearing a new prisoner suit, which was obvious since the old one had blood stains all over it. "Are you okay?" She then asked this unexpected question. Someone like her would never care for someone's feelings, right? 

I made eye contact with Dan to see the same lifeless eyes. Prison was killing her. "Why do you ask?" I responded. "You seem a bit off..." She leaned back on the chair and crossed her legs. "I'm fine, let's just get this over with so I can leave. I had plans for today already." I spat without thinking or realizing. Dan's eyes widened as she looked at me in shock. She sighed and went back to her resting face. 

"What, you got something more important to do?" She said with sass, I realized I may have been a little too rude this time. "Let's just talk, or not." It all went quiet, the room was now awkward. I was sitting uncomfortably, my feet slightly tapping on the floor. She also looked really awkward, she had her arms crossed but I could hear her fingers tap on the chair. "You ever liked someone?" She broke the silence. I felt my heart rush as soon as I thought of her, Jugyeong.

"What's with the sudden question?" I cleared my throat and sat up straight, crossing my arms due to the sudden nervous sensation. "Just asking, you look like you get all the girls" She said, it sounded like she was actually complimenting me. So that's how I took it. "I get all, except for one. She's different." I thought of Jugyeong. 

"Different in what sense? She got better taste or she just likes them funny?" Dan said sarcastically. I let out a slight chuckle. "No, no. I'm the best a girl can get, if we're being honest. I would save her contact as 'girlfriend,' 'my love,' 'my precious,' I would protect her from all dangers, I would even..." I stopped for a second and realized all the things I would do for her when she didn't even see me as more than a friend. 

"I would do everything for her, for some reason. Maybe it's love? Maybe I just like her so much?" I realized I was talking to myself more than I was to Dan. She let out a cackle, "love? there is no such thing, Han Seojun. It's all fake, you just have to be with them enough to realize that." Yeah, right. Like she had ever experienced love, she can't be talking. I kept my words to myself and rolled my eyes. 

"So what's the deal? You say you got everything, so why can't you pull her?" She asked in a more serious tone. "She just refuses to see me for what I am, a guy. I want her to notice me, but she only has space for one guy in her heart." I said without thinking. Dan said "that's a shame" but she didn't look like she meant it.