The Bites of Seduction

Tisk tisk tisk

What do I do? I see this part of Dylan that I don't like. I think I always fathomed having an overprotective boyfriend that was really jealous but now that I have that same problem, it sucks. Well actually he's not my boyfriend anymore but who cares? When you have someone stalking you or being jealous around you, and you don't like that person right now, you might feel uncomfortable and irritated. Just like I am now!

I don't like to see mad Dylan, it just doesn't seem right. Instead of the kind, gentle, loving and charming man that he is... I mean, that I thought he was, he is so violent, mean, and fatuous in his attempts to get me back. If anything, seeing him like this is making me draw farther into myself and thinking why I ever chose to go out with him. Oh me, what did I think? That it would last? Ha-ha.

I'm just a stupid little girl, thinking it's okay to kiss a stranger one day, then kissing him in my bedroom the other and then having him sleep in my bedroom with me. This went so fast! Don't you think?

You might think, 'oh by the end of this they will be together again' and hey maybe your right. Who knows what could happen? Or you might think ' oh I can't believe she got together with him so fast just to overreact and break up with him.' But hear me out.

I did think that at one point that I overreacted but as soon as I started to see the desperate and clingy part of Dylan, I just don't feel as interested. Why should I tell him I forgive him and have no means of getting back with him.

I think I thought of those Disney stories where the princess finds love at first sight. Oh buddy was I in for it! I did find my, what seemed to be, my Prince Charming but it wasn't a happy ever ending to me. It's just not possible to get with someone the first day you meet them and go from there.

I should of got to know Dylan, rather than ask questions later. That's my biggest regret. I guess his ability to charm me and make me feel special was the trigger. I guess that I desired something to look forward to other than my empty house when I came home from school or when I woke up.

I do admit it was fun and it was a good experience but that's it. Look at me calling this an experience! Well you know what they say, 'making mistakes helps you learn and shapes you to be the best person you could be.' I'm trying to think of who said that. Maybe I just made it up or something. Ehh whatever.

As I look at those beastly eyes, I wonder where I made the mistake. Was it the first day walking to my balcony and noticing him? Or was it the day I bumped into him while running? Or was it the time I went to Denny's and saw him? Or was it when he kissed me and I agreed to hang out with him later? Or was it when I agreed or went along with being his girlfriend?

It's weird. I have no idea what to think about as I see how angry he is. I just want him to leave so I can get out of this difficult situation. I can't think of anything to say. I just look at him with my mouth agape and a shocked countenance.

Somebody please help me! Ahhhhhh!!!!