No matter what

Please-11

I open the bathroom stall and walk outside, I look at Alex leaning on the wall staring at his phone with a worried expression, I sigh looking at him, he shuts his phone and looks up at me then smiles weakly

I always make him worry. I'm sorry Alex

I look up at him and sign to him " everything okay" I slowly put my hands down, he smiles " just worried about a friend" he says with a low voice

I smile and raise my hands again " whatever is going on I think your friend is alright, don't worry much" I smile

"I wish it could be like that, my friend... shes... she's very naive and a child, she tends to think that whatever she wants she will get one day" he sighs leaning his head back a little " and I want to protect her from the harsh world...the harsh truth, but I'm scared one day that I won't be able to"

Alex........I-......

I take a deep breath holding my tears in.

"I just hope she's okay, I know she wanted to join this sport too and many other sports everyone else does, but she just sits on the bleachers and cheers on while she Is hurting inside, oh" he leans his head down a little and looks at me " she has a condition where she can't play sports, that's why she can't" I gulp hard and nod

" she had a doctor's appointment today, she keeps forgetting her reports so I don't know how she is doing, I'm worried about her health. She will keep it hidden I know that for sure, and there's no way I can do anything for her. I search as much as I can about her condition to help her heal from it, but there is no cure. No matter what I do..ill never be able to help her" he takes a deep breath running his hands through his hair

A-Alex you've helped me so much.....how could you think that you are no help...I didn't know you feel such a way. When no one sat with me or looked at me it was you who was with me, in days where you could go out and have fun with others you would stay in with me just so I could not be alone.

I slowly walk toward him while holding back my tears

Alex....you've done so much for me.

I look at him, he looks down at me and forces a smile.

I raise my hands and sign to him " there's no way your no help to her, if she has a friend like you there is nothing else she could ever want. I am pretty sure you bring her a lot of happiness, without you even realizing it, just even the sight of you brings her happiness. Dont think that you are no help or you can't do anything, her health condition might not be curable, but you make the pain ease down for her, and give her reason to keep going."

he looks down at me and tilts his head laughing a little " you think so? you never even meet her and you dont know me well either. How can you say for sure?" he chuckles.

I smile and raise my hands again "I dont need to meet her to know, and I dont need to know you well to know, your heart is pure, and the way you care for her, I can tell how much of help you are to her."

He looks at me for a minute with an expressionless face

I dont know why is he just staring at me, I can't tell what he is thinking... Alex you have no idea what you mean to me. Please. Please dont think you can never help me.

His face suddenly changes and he smiles "I hope what you said is true" he whispers then turn walking away.

I watch his back walk away, I hold my breath and bite my lip hard to prevent the tears to come out, I gulp hard taking a deep breath. I look up and shake my head to keep the tears in. I go near the sink, open the tap washing my face.

Alex, I'm sorry for making you feel that way. I'm sorry...