Life of a Soldier

5:00 am

I can't sleep, I'm not sure if it's that dream again or the fact that if I see it again, I might as well just jerk off. I'm trying to avoid that but it's pretty hard to. His fur against mine, the palm of his hand grasping onto my dick made it feel so good, who would want it to stop..?

I'd sigh, holding onto a pillow while trying to get the thought out of my head. As I moved to the side I saw a photo on the dresser that I had kept when I was younger. Me and Adrien, I think that was his name. We've gotten along pretty well but I'm not too sure if I would memorize what had happened during my time in the hospital. He just stuck with me, like as if your flying a plane that was your own creation. Never breaking, soothe landings, and finally repairs, I felt like a plane, someone taking care of me, someone who loved me. As I finally laid my head on the pillow again, it was turning a bit bright outside, I didn't even get to close my eyes yet.. As I sat up from my bed, groaning a bit, i went to put on a hoodie and some sneakers, grabbing some cigarettes to smoke outside. I knew it was wrong since Pollen was always near me, but she isn't up yet, neither is anyone else, and besides, who would stop me? As I began lighting up a cigarette I heard a familiar voice.

"Ahem."

I jumped for a moment before seeing it was Torcher. "What the hell- so your just gonna sneak up on people like that huh.." He shrugged his shoulders before walking over to me, taking a cigarette from the packet I had. "Never knew you smoked kid. You know it's bad for you right?" He jokingly said. I'd looked at him in disbelief, calling me a child?!

"Look just because I'm short doesn't mean you can just call me a kid ya know. Just remember I kicked your ass and I'll do it again!" I yelled. It went silent for a moment before I felt a cold breeze coming onto me. I saw Torcher look directly at me, throwing the cigarette down as he got closer, grabbing onto my chin a bit.

"LET ME GO!"

"Don't start getting so cocky with me alright? Let's not forget how you let the other soldiers pick on you and shit and how even though you beat me that one time, don't forget what I'm capable of doing." His voice was so stern. At this point my mind went blank, I was confused, scared maybe? All I saw was the look he had on his face, smirking. "Got nothing else to say huh? Good. Now head back to bed, before you'll have some more issues than what happened."

Before I was going to say something, he walked off, my lighter still in his hand. "Wait.. my lighter- that son of a bitch.." I mumbled, walking into my room and locking the door. I tugged my hoodie over my head but I don't think it could've hid that well. So do I really like him? Yes. Yes I do. Do I want to keep it a secret? Till the day I die at least..