Why? ( Shigaraki Tomura x reader)

Chapter 10

Shigaraki was laying on your lap as you massaged his scalp. He's been going through a lot of stress recently and through a lot of hard thinking.

You knew it wasn't a big deal, he would quickly find a solution. Yet you told him that this will help him think, which he already knew wasn't true, yet still let you touch his head.

" Is this helping you?" You question after a good ten minutes through the rubbing of his head and playing with his hair. " yeah..." his eyes opened, looking up at you which you slightly blush.

" Be honest with me... would you help me become the king of this world?" You paused before smiling. " of course." Honestly, you didn't know. It would depend on how he would do it. You didn't want to kill innocent people, only the bad ones. Make the world peaceful once more. But, wouldn't you have to kill him and the whole league?

You gulped.

" actually-..." your breath hitched, " I don't know the answer to that" he sat up, leaving your hands laying in your lap as your eyes widen. Fear was rising, you didn't want to get hurt by him or upset him.

It was a good long, unlasting silence.

" Y/n... tell me something..." he broke the thin layer of silence with his rough voice, keeping his gaze away from you. You didn't want to look at him.

" Are you still wanting to be a hero? Or are you part of the league?" you couldn't answer that question either.

" I don't know"

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It was a rainy day or month I should say. It sets the vibe for the upcoming months, the months that ruined everything.

At this time you were only 4 to 5 years old. You're parents were still around, and everything was semi-normal. Well for you at least, your parents had a different story.

" what are we even supposed to do?" They would question as their sweet innocent child would sleep in their bedroom.

" Can't you just pay them off?" Your mother would ask as the father became frustrated.

" that's not how this works, I would have already done it if it was an option" he would speak in a threatening and angry tone to his wife. His hands dug into his hair.

" We have enough money, right? They will-" the father snaps, " No they won't!" He shouts. His wife would fall silent as your eyes will spark open in the dead of the night.

In distance, you can hear them speak.

" I'm sorry... I just... don't know what to do" he would mumble, " with you and Y/n, it's stressful" at this point you have already stood up from your bed, opening your bedroom as quietly as possible.

Where your bedroom sat, you could easily see the living room. You were to quickly spot your father sitting there, his elbows on his knees as he's bent over with his hands in his hair. Your mother was on her knees, holding his arm with a sad look.

" It's okay... remember," she gripped his hands, " we are in the same situation" your father bit his lip, his eyes twitching, almost as if he was trying to keep his tears hidden from her eyes.

" I'm awful for thinking this..." your mother awaits his response, " maybe we should just leave this life behind" your small eyes widen, gripping at your pajamas in confusion.

" And leave Y/n behind?" He nods, as your mother sighs. Her mouth was about to open before you walked out, making the floors creak.

"you're leaving me?" They turned to see you, your dad look with your grips so tightly if the stuffed animal you fell asleep with.

Their eyes widen before your mother put a fake expression. " Oh no, sweetie!" She rushes up to you, hugging you " we are talking about another Y/n dear!" She pulls back to look at you, " We could never leave you!" She smiles, your father joining in on the conversations.

" the other Y/n is very mean! Like a big bully!" your eyes widen, " Really?" They nod. " of course! We wouldn't lie to you!"

You frown, " Aren't you friends with All Might? He can fight the other Y/n and make them stop!" Your little self exclaimed as a smile reached your face. Your mother smiled back.

" Oh, I don't think he could do that... maybe we can stick up for ourselves- isn't that right dear?" She turned around to look at your father who smiled with his eyes closed. His eyes were slightly red, obviously from crying.

" of course!" You smiled, there lies hiding the truth.

" Now, I think it's time for bed"

" Okay, mommy!"

" come on hurry!" Your farther shouted, shoving random things in his bag as his wife followed.

" I am!" The pictures of family photos rattled as they rushed around the house in, some of them falling, the glass cracking and splattered everywhere. They didn't notice, nor did they care.

" do you want to live or not! Come on!" The father was already at the door, ready to go as the mother ran to the door, slamming the door open.

" I am!" They got in their car and rushed out of the drive way, leaving a path. Only a few minutes passed when another car showed up. It was black, all tented. And the people inside were quick to get out of the car with weapons, going into the house, ready to fight.

" search the house!" A higher-up shouted, opening drawers, pushing family photos or random pictures onto the ground. Going into your room, tearing up everything, and ripping it out.

When they didn't find what they wanted, they left the home in defeat. Until one of them noticed the tire marks on the ground.

The woman smirked under her mask, pointing towards it, " Oooo," she turned to the others, " they could tell we were coming" she walked to a car door that was automatically opened for her.

" Go after the tire marks!" She shouts then pointed to someone random.

" You! Burn the house!"

The house was quickly splattered with gasoline and lit, the house going into flames. The memories and the children's toys burn, with nothing left but ashes.

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" come on Y/n! You're so slow!" You shook your head in protest, Toga smiling wildly. She somehow convinced you to let her dress you up which it was either this or her taking some of your blood.

" Come on! You promised!" You shook your head, " you said you would dress me up! Not to show anyone!" She frowned, crossing your arms as you rushed back into the comfort of your bedroom.

" pussy up!" She exclaimed as she followed after you with a frown, watching you change your clothes in the shadows.

She originally had you in a white dress that tightened around your waist. She did your hair in a  ( insert whatever), and lastly, had some makeup on your face that complemented your eyes.

" no!" You shouted back, walking out of the shadows with a hoodie and jeans.

" but you dress so plain!" You rolled your eyes as you throw yourself on your bed, taking out a phone you had been given to open a mobile game.

" and you looked so cute! could have gotten everyone you wanted!" You blushed without her knowing so, hiding it in your hoodie.

" I don't need anyone" Toga raised a brow before smirking, " that's right!" She paused, " you have Shigaraki!" You huffed.

" shut up please"

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Word count: 1263

Posted: 4/25/22

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