Savagely Inhibited

eleven

Ender.

I sat in the abandoned RV with Warren, his body laying still passed out on mine. I didn't really know what do do with such a thing since I told him to leave. I don't know why he wasted his time.

Not to mention my dad never came with him. I can only imagine what his ulterior motive for that was. I can already imagine it wasn't a good one.

Knowing Warren, he told him about what we've done. Not to mention my scent still lingers within him. I'm not really surprised because when we first had sex that's all I wanted, now...it's slowly fading, barely.

Of course it's come to this.

I was almost able to control his thoughts and his choices. I wanted to make him leave and just go home, to leave me be here. Being out here alone puts things into perspective in a way. I'm not exactly sure how, or maybe I do know how. I just don't know how to explain it.

Running all the way out here is an easier solution, if I just stay there and let my frustrations accumulate... I already know that I would just be bringing harm to myself than anyone else. I can hear what people say and they're not rude per say when it comes to random people and strangers.

Though with what I know now and how things went with the Luna I... I already know I wasn't suitable in that state of mind to be around anybody. Makes you very toxic towards others, at least for me.

Because I can keep asking myself all the time, why me? Except nothing wants to give me the answers I desire. It's like it's such a bad thing to want to know something and I stare back with these eyes.

I tend to hate quite easily, and it's not very hard to do so. When you hear peoples thoughts you tend to really know they feel. Except when it came to Warren what he thought he didn't try to hide. He was quite...true to what he said and what he thought, he meant.

There wasn't some hidden agenda, I mean, yes there was. Except with time he did change his mind. It doesn't mean it doesn't disappoint me. He's only human...and I can easily say that.

As I sat here on the bed, I began to feel him move on me. Like he was waking up or having some type of nightmare.

I just watched, seeing him just snuggle into my body. I found myself sitting up against the walls of the RV, seeing his body move against mine perfectly. Nestling his head against my chest, he slept more soundly it seemed.

My eyes locked onto such a behavior, causing me to snort.

I wasn't sure if I should say he's awake or let him be. It didn't look like a gesture of someone being awake so I wasn't sure. Not to mention his eyes were closed...

Looking off of him, I saw outside and how clear the sky was. The moon was still full and yet I didn't get comfort from it. It actually...irritated me. To think werewolves got comfort from it, the Luna and her...idiocy.

"Hey..."

I look, seeing Warren stretching against me. His arms wrapping around my waist as he hugged me. I ignored my frustration to his actions, seeing him sit up between my legs. He gazed up at me and I see him grin.

"What is it?"

"You...you look very at peace somehow despite your annoyed expression." He states quietly, looking around where we were. "Are we...in an abandoned RV?"

"Yep. I found it, it's at a nice spot too so... I didn't feel like taking you back because I already know some dumb human will think I did something to you." I lie, yet tell the truth. I just didn't feel like taking him back was all.