Small Town (Lonely Series Book 2)

Prologue

Prologue

"I was there for you that night, I waited for you until dawn but there was no hope of sign that you will be there for me," panimula niya sa usapan as he leaned on the railings while the cigars were placed in between his fingers.

"I came to you that night, I canceled my flight so I just can see you but I regret it. I wish I could have to go back in time not to cancel that goddam flight anymore just to see you there in someone else's arms," I tried so hard not to break down this time, I've always reminded myself that I healed.

I already repaired my broken soul a long time ago.

"Don't lie to me," si Red.

"Why would I do that huh?" Kunot noo akong lumingon sa kanyang gawi.

"Cause you are!"

Nakaramdam ako ng kalabog sa puso ko at tinik na tumutusok 'dun. How dare he is to tell me that. I may be wrong at some time but I will never lie.

"How dare you say that to me huh?! Do you think I'll bother you and say 'I have loved you too' while you're on your wife's shoulder? for god's sake Red! Saan ako lulugar knowing na nandiyan na yung taong magiging asawa mo, at isa pa you never gave me the assurance I've wanted. Those three words you said will never be enough for me to believe you that you love me," hindi ko mapigilang mapasigaw sa kanya sa galit, the shock was all drawn over his face so I looked away not to show any care.

"You never gave me the assurance I've asked for too, all you do is treat me like I don't exist because you've always reminded yourself that you're just like a sister to me when the truth is you're not!"

How dare he is fireback at me this way? It's true perhaps those words don't fit on this closure.

"I did all those things to you, Adelaine! I did all everything I can just for you because I love you and not just because you're my friend!"

I was about to laugh but I stopped myself from it. Was he using the past to convince me or to feel pity for him?

"Huli na ang lahat para sabihin mo iyan sa'kin, Red. Huling-huli na ang lahat dahil nagmahal ka na ng iba," walang emosyon kong sabi at nagiwas ulit ng tingin, I don't know how many times I've looked away at this hour.

"Maybe we'll try again right?"

"How could you easily dump someone after this huh? Sa tingin mo matutuwa akong may sinaktan kang tao para lang sa'kin?" I hissed.

"Sa tingin mo ba masaya akong ipagpilit ang sarili ko sa ibang tao, no matter how hard I tried for us to work out but all those 3 years we had all I think is you. Yes, I've loved someone else but how can I continue those feelings I had for her when I couldn't forget about you thinking...we could have been so good together if we assure both of our feelings?"

"Then why settle to a marriage if hindi mo naman pala kayang panindigan habang buhay? You're really good at destroying someone's soul ha?"

Na master niya na ate e yung tipo ng tao desididong gawin ang lahat para lang makuha ang gusto niya kahit may naiipit ng ibang tao kahit hindi naman nila deserve iyon.

"I settled life with her because it was my choice, our choice."

Oh, choice mo naman pala bat mo iiwan?

"Then why dump her than for me?" Taas kilay kong tanong.

"Cause I love you!"

I chuckled and tightened my grip.

"Do you think I'd still love you after disrespecting your wife like that?"

"Then I'll make you love me again,"

How shameless are you?

"Really? You'll do anything in disguise so you can have me back again?"

"I will sail the boat in every ocean to find the one in my life and save her from sinking,"

Sail mo mukha mo.

"I will drown myself forever in the darkness then so you will never save me no matter how hard you tried to search for me in the sea because I will never love someone again who will risk everything and even hurt someone for me."

At this point, I wanted to cry. Tears suddenly formed in my eyes, and my shoulders began to shake in the pain of tears. Then it started raining.

"I'm asking you Red, did you ever love me?" Pag-ulit ko.

"Yes," did you really mean it?

"Minahal mo ba talaga ako o minahal mo lang ako dahil pinili mong mahalin ako dahil ako yung nandiyan sa'yo?" Hindi siya sumagot at nagiwas ng tingin.

"I even asked myself one time if I have ever loved you, I ignored those weird thoughts coming into my mind but I didn't 'because I think I don't remember myself loving a man like you," natatawang sabi ko.

"I don't believe you 'cause you love me," tama ka pero hindi ka pa rin magiging akin.

"Maybe I did, but not a long time perhaps I just love the idea of you years ago," nilagpasan ko siyang basang-basa ulan at pinunasan ang mga luhang tumutulo mula sa aking mga mata.

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