Loving Him Afar

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Hello,

It's Palm Sunday, I heared you're in Pangasinan. Paano ka napunta diyan? Sino kasama mo? Anyway, I'm happy after two years makakapag simba na rin ako ng Palm Sunday. We have problem pa nga. Dapat parokya kami magsisimba like ten am mass.

I don't have motor to ride so sa chapel nalang kami nagsimba.

Before the mass start, while waiting kay Father. Nag kwentuhan kami ni Jasper. May pinakita siya sa aking facebook ng girl. He said nakakausap mo raw 'yon at nag heart ng message. Nagulat ako sa info. Para ako nanlamig pero it's ok lang.

I have instinct na she's the one na ka-talking stage mo.

But I'm happy makikita ko friend mo magserve.

Noong pauwi na kami, kinausap ako nung tito ko. He asked something, gano'n naman kami lagi. Alam mo iyong close at hindi. Basta formal lang, kumustahan like that.

Noong nakita ko friend mo, nagkatinginan kami tapos bahagya siyang natawa. Hindi ko na rin maintindihan friend mo. Alam niya ba na crush kita?

I'm happy today, maglalakad kasi kami pauwi. I miss walking at night and we have chikahan pa. It feels mabigat if mag chikahan kami while Holy Week. 

Napagusapan namin nila kambal na that girl, na pinakita nila sa akin kanina is confirm na ka-talking stage mo. Nagulat ako, hindi ako nasaktan. Nagulat ako. Tama iyong instict ko. She's a 2005 baby, GAS and studying to become Teacher someday.

Sorry I stalk her.

That's the sign I'm waiting for.

I guess favorite ako ni Lord? Wala pang one week binigay niya na agad sa akin 'yong sign. Para hindi na tumagal. Para hindi na ako mag overthink. Para hindi na ako masaktan lalo.

Or maybe iniisip ko lang 'to para hindi talaga ako masaktan, pero hindi ako nasasaktan. Ha ?

Friend siya ni Justine, their talking. It's ok lang.

Alam mo 'yung friends mo ta's sila kambal before the mass start, nagkwentuhan sila about you and that girl. Tapos bigla ako hinanap ng friend mo which is nagpakaba sa akin. I mean kayo kasi topic tapos bigla ako hinanap.

I'm happy there's someone na mag-aalaga sa 'yo, someone makes you happy. I hope she can take care of you very well. Will love you at hindi ka sasaktan. Goodluck on your journey, I'll pray for your success. 

Anw, this is my last letter about my feelings sa 'yo. After this last letter, I don't have any feelings for you. Sometimes love is about letting go.

You might not be my lifetime reality but you will be always my one of my favorite memory.

Bye, Kuya Kiel.

Yours Truly,

C.

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