i feel a scratch at my nose
its my mask wire
i take it out
but then realize
i like the way it feels
i move it to my arm
i scratch
and scratch
until the scratches heal in a minute
i need more
i need blood
i see a pencil sharpener
i fiddle with it
i realize how to take it apart
i clean it
put it to my arm
it feels weird but i get used to it
month after month
relapse after relapse
but then the sharpener doesnt even draw blood
i need something sharper
a box cutter?
not sharp enough
i search
and search
i just want to feel something
but then i see glass
i smash a cup
get good sharp pieces
and finally bleed and feel
but i wonder
what would have happened if i never took out the wire?
YOU ARE READING
my poems :D
Puisiall of these are pretty dark. like suicide and self harm and shit. so yea. tw: suicide and self harm
