It's Not An Illusion To Me
Elysa's POV:
I think I'm actually about to flip. Or cry. Or kill someone. Or all of those put together.
Oh yeah. I'm angry.
Why?
Guess who Pat was with. Remember that 'lovely' girl from the basketball game that he kissed. Emily?
Well yeah. About a week ago I caught him having a full out make-out session with her. After he promised me it meant nothing the first time. I haven't spoken I him since.
And wanna know what the best part is?
Her hands were in his long hair(he recently decided to grow it out and now it's like a cute(wait not anymore) mop on his head) tugging on it.
Pat has being trying to call and text me all week and I'm just not answering. He's even tried to talk to me at school and I've just ignored him.
And the best part about that?
He doesn't even know I caught him that day.
But am I getting revenge?
Of course.
So here's my plan. I'm basically 'hiring' Pat's best friend, Jacob, to kiss me. I picked Jacob because well, he's hot. And because Jacob is also best friends with Emily so it will have a bigger effect.
You're probably thinking, "But won't he just get mad at you when he sees you kissing another boy?" Well of course. But when he yells at me that's when it all goes down. Everything comes out. All the lies. Everything.
Pat needs to know that I'm not just a push over. If he wants me then he has to earn me. I'm not gonna be some doll that he uses for satisfaction. I'm just angry it took me this long to realize he was using me. But obviously I wasn't good enough so he had to go to Emily. What a joke?
So today I'm supposed to be meeting the whole group at 16 Handles, the frozen yogurt place. Everyone but Pat knows what happened. So we're all going to show up an hour before and when we see Pat come Jacob and I will kiss. Right in front of Pat.
We're at 16 Handles now and we've all been here for like a half hour. I noticed how happy Christina and Derek look. I wish me and Pat were still like that. We kinda are but it just doesn't seem real anymore. It feels forced. I don't want it to but it does.
Pat walks in and I'm about to kiss Jacob but for some reason I just can't. Everyone waits for me to make a move but I can't. I can't hurt him like he hurt me. I just need to tell him how I feel straight out.
eh
"Elysa, c'mon!" Jacob says and I shake my head 'no'.
"Pat, we need to talk." I say sadly and he looks confused.
"Sure, anything." Pat replies concerned and my heart aches. I really love him but I don't know if he feels the same anymore.
"Do you love me?" I ask him straight out. If he says no then there's nothing else to say.
"Of course I do! Why are you even asking me that?" Pat asks me confused and now I just feel really hurt.
"I saw you kiss Emily again." I say flatly and his face drops.
"Elysa, it's not what it-" he says and I cut him off.
"Pat, stop lying. You told me you wouldn't hurt me again, and you did. I don't care what it was. I know what I saw. Why were you even with her?" I say sadly and he looks upset.
"I can be with whoever I want, you don't own me." he snaps and everyone looks at him with daggers, even Shane.
"I never said I owned you! But do you know the definition of having a girlfriend? Because that means that you're supposed to be loyal to that girl and that girl only! And love? You obviously don't know what that means." I snap back and now he looks angry.
