Something Domestic

Chapter 20

*Zariah's POV*
It's been a few weeks since the breakup, I lost track after 2. I moved out of Oshin's apartment and I've been crashing with Mackenzie. Oshin says the house my uncle got us is mine rightfully and I should be living there but how. How can I move into that house knowing I was supposed to live there with my wife Oshin. This time of being single has helped my mental health I must say and it's so helpful that Oshin supports my journey as a friend. We still keep distance between us but she checks up on me and asks how things are going. I just got connected with a great therapist and Oshin is so happy for me. I have decided that I am not gonna sulk on Kenzie's couch any longer. I shall go confront my family. I got dressed and texted the group chat for thoughts and prayers. I got in my car and drove to Nan's house. The car ride felt unfamiliar and foreign. The street names and turns felt like I was on a wild adventure to lands I had never been to before. I sighed as I turned down her road and breathed deeply as I parked in the driveway.

I slowly made my way up to the door and pressed the doorbell. Then I froze. Apart of me wishes no one answers. But my wishes weren't to come true. I heard the door unlock and slowly creak open

"My stars" Nan looked at me

"We need to talk" I fiddled with keys to keep my hands from shaking

"Come in" She opened the door for me and we walked to the dining table

"Nan" I sighed

"Zariah I love you. Your mother was my only daughter and when she died I was devastated but I had you. She left me with a gift. My precious granddaughter. Of course, I love my grandson but there has always been something extra special about you. Maybe it's your mother's smile, or the glimmer in your eye, or your attitude since birth" She poured herself some tea " Zariah I've done some reflecting on my words to you"

"And" I looked up at her

"I won't lie I don't understand the being gay all of a sudden. You have dated nothing but men and then Oshin comes along and you like women. a lesbian. It is confusing"

"It wasn't just Oshin. I dated another female before that" I sighed "I kept it a secret and we broke up before I ever came clean about it"

"It's like I don't know my grandbaby"

"I'm still me Nan. I just prefer women over men"

"So that's it. No men"

"No, I love women now Nan. It isn't a phase. Sudden yes but life is spontaneous. You decided up out of the blue one day you hated Brussel sprouts after loving them since you were a little girl"

"Brussel sprouts and dick are different zeebee"

"I hate both" I slightly chuckled

"Well I need to adjust and I mean truly try to adjust. It don't make sense to me but I can't lecture you on it without reflecting on myself first. Thou hath not sin yadda yadda"

"Nan you cant refer to the bible as yadda yadda" I laughed

"Well shit I just did lord forgive me you know my heart and Zeebee I want you to know my heart too"

"Nan if you will try to accept me for me I can know your heart" I smiled

"My granddaughter is more important than any confusion I may have about who she loves. Man or woman I want you happy and I overreacted" She put her arms out for a hug

"I love you Nan" I hugged her

"Aww, my baby. This is long overdue" She rocked with me

"I was so afraid you'd hate me" I tried not to cry