Dr. Zamo

Three

There was not much going on at the hospital, Katya worked alone in her office while her teammates were in their personal department. It was late in the afternoon and she only had half an hour to kill before driving her and Trixie home. When someone knocked at her door she figured it was her girlfriend, so she closed her laptop and put on her coat. But it wasn't her favorite blonde waiting on the other side of the door.

"Oh. Hadley. What are you doing here?" Katya asked, and let the woman come in the room. She was less than pleased to see her and didn't make much effort to hide it.
"I'm working here again. I'm with Kutner in the emergency service."
"Okay. I suppose that's good." Katya replied, and looked down at her phone when she received a text from Trixie saying she would be in the parking lot in five minutes.

"Well I have to go now. I'll see you around"
"Wait, I wanted to talk to you more" Hadley said pleadingly. Katya nodded halfheartedly and prayed in her head that it wouldn't be about what she thought, even if there was no other reason Hadley would've come back. They walked down the corridors side by side while Katya's former colleague recalled their little fling with longing.

"I was frustrated but I understand you now, and I miss our little breaks in your office" The girl concluded with a lustful tone that irritated Katya. They were reaching her car and she hoped Trixie would come out soon so she could introduce her to Hadley and make her go away.

"I'm not interested. You decided to end it so don't backtrack now." Katya sighed, leaning her back against the car.
"I made a mistake" Hadley almost whispered. She leaned forward and in a split second she was kissing Katya, already trying to stick her tongue down the blonde's throat. Katya's eyes widened and she put her hand on the girl's arm to push her back.
"What the fuck is wrong with you! I don't want you anymore, if you didn't notice. I'm in a relationship with a perfect girl whom I love."
"We can always fuck on the side"
"No!" Katya shouted and settled in her car, slamming the door shut. Hadley finally walked away and Katya was fuming. Her coming back in her life was the last thing she needed. After calming down she checked the time and it was past six pm, Trixie should've already been there. She didn't receive new messages from her and when she tried to call her, she didn't answer. That's when Katya realized what must've happened. She called Wilson, and he told her Trixie went home with a taxi a few minutes ago. Katya decided to go to Trixie's apartment, she had to see her.

Trixie heard the doorbell ring, and it took all the courage she had to stop crying and get up. She knew who it was, and she also knew it would be stupid not to answer, so she wiped her eyes and opened the door.

"Baby... I know what it must've looked like from your point of view but believe me I was as shocked as you. I pushed her away as soon as I realized what was happening. I don't care about her or anyone else Trixie it's just you" Katya explained, hoping that Trixie would trust her.
"I feel like we're moving too fast. I think I need a break" The blonde replied while nervously biting her lip. Katya's heart sank and she was fumbling with her words to convince Trixie there was no reason to doubt their love. However there was no use, Trixie had made her mind and was determined to make things go her way.

"I have to take some time for myself. I love you Katya, please don't hold it against me"
"I don't understand. I thought we were finally good now. I love you too, but I can't go back and forth like that." Katya said desperately.
"Forgive me" Trixie added and closed the door. There was nothing she could say to justify her behavior without telling the truth, and she couldn't face it yet. She went back to her bedroom and cried again, the fear of losing Katya like a sword of Damocles.

Katya was lost, she wondered what was going on, if Trixie was not telling her something or if she was just playing with her. Fortunately, she didn't have to ruin her mind for too long trying to make sense of this situation. She understood everything the day after, when the younger woman excused herself from a meeting to go to the restroom. Katya had noticed how pale she looked since she arrived in the morning, so when she didn't come back twenty minutes later she decided to check up on her. Katya knocked on the bathroom door and heard crying on the other side. Trixie had just threw up, and the build up emotions made the tears fall.

"Trixie open please. It's me, let me in" Katya called worryingly, still unaware of what she had done to make her girlfriend act so oddly. She heard a lock turn and the door slowly opened. Trixie seemed weak, her head hung low like she was ashamed of something. Katya entered and shut the door behind her. She frantically looked at the blonde like she would find the reason to her pain on her face.

"I'm three months pregnant" Trixie barely whispered in a broken voice. Nevertheless Katya heard her clearly, and she had to support herself on the wall.
"How?" She asked incredulously.
"After my ex and I broke up I thought I needed to get away from women for awhile... I don't even know who got me pregnant, it could be any of the guys I fucked back then. It's too late for me to get an abortion." Trixie explained, keeping her gaze on the floor and holding her arms around herself.
"You don't want this baby?"
"I don't know... I can't raise a child on my own in my small apartment with only my salary and this full time job."
"I'll help you"
"No... This is exactly why we can't be together. We've known each other for a few months and I don't want you to have to deal with me being pregnant. It's not your responsibility, you didn't ask for this"

Katya reached out and took Trixie's hand in her own.
"I love you, no matter what situation you're in. You are not alone. We'll find a way to work things out together" She reassured.
"You don't even like kids... Don't do this because you pity me"
"I'm not gonna break up with you because you're pregnant anyway. I have money, a big house, and we'll manage for the rest, okay?"

Trixie nodded and took a step forward, and Katya closed the space between them to hug her.

"I'm scared" Trixie mumbled against Katya's shoulder.
"It's normal baby. I am too."

Katya softly scratched the back of Trixie's head and held her in her arms for awhile. It was maybe crazy to make the decision of caring for Trixie's needs on the spot, but there was really no other option. Katya could never let her go, and somehow the prospect of her girlfriend moving in with her excited her a lot. However she wasn't ready to have a baby in her house at all. Katya needed silence and space. She hoped that her will was strong enough to get used to what her life would be in six months or so. The two women went back to their meeting, not without getting questioning looks from some colleagues. Katya shrugged it off and held Trixie's hand until the end of the conference.

"Have you seen an obstetrician yet?" Katya asked when they arrived at her house.
"No... I learned the news two days ago."
"I'll ask Wilson who's the best in our hospital."
"Okay, but please don't tell anyone yet. I don't think I'm ready to receive all the worried comments concerning the fact that this baby doesn't have a father."
"I won't. But your baby doesn't need a father. You'll be a great mother. And I'm here too. I don't know how much of a parent I can be but I'll try my best."
"Thank you Kat. I would be so lost without you"

Trixie was incredibly grateful for Katya. She didn't have to question her love when her girlfriend was this caring with her.