The Compatible

Chapter 15

Nightmare

Arthit's POV

When I was small I was happy and bubbly kid just like every other kid and everyone loved me.
I always wanted to simple person not a special one, but I think Noone wanted that.
Wherever go I will become center of attraction...
What can I do...

When I came to age, where I can understand things.
One day after playing with my friends I saw my grandparent sitting with my parents and talking something seriously.
I have only seen them in pictures, Ma said they both separated themselves from their parents when I born.
Later for some years, I didn't understood why though.
After that day my grandparents started coming frequently and I am happy because they loved me so much.

In my family everyone loved me treated me like fragile flowers. Even though I hated to be treated like that, but though I love them so much.

When I was in middle school,
In our school we learned about male and female bodies.
It's not like I've never knew what's difference but I am different from what I always knew but Ma told me that some are like me also and it's normal.
So when that class ended I rushed to home to ask Ma why she lied but found Ma and Pa were fighting.

"What we are going to do?" Ma asked.
"I don't know.." Pa replied.
"We have to talk to him right.. We have to make him understand that he is not different but special. Otherwise we will fail him." Ma said
I think they are talking about me.
"We will talk this tomorrow." Pa said and went hurriedly somewhere.

After sometime I went in home and pretend that I just came. I told Ma that I wanted to sleep and went straight to my room.
I locked my door.
Striped my clothes and stood infront of mirror.
I saw I have a penis which is male organ and I also have something similar with....Vagina?
How come it's like that. I have anus back here.

Someone softly knocked on my door. I know it's Ma, I got dressed and opened door.
"Oon, Ma wants to say sorry na. I know you heard us." I lowered my head. "Don't think you are different na. Oon, you are special. We will go to doctor and he will tell you how special you are. Ok na?" I hesitantly nodded.

After when Pa came we went to doctor and he explained us everything about my types of people.
Hermaphrodite..
They might be true or pseudo...
In my case, he said, I am pseudo one...
That means I can't give birth but I've female genital organs...

We got home and I went straight straight to my room.
Even though my parents love me so much they are bad at communication and conversations..
So I had always been pep talking to myself...

After that day I became so much sensitive.
When my grandparents died in accident. My father was devastated and same day I done something that they said don't do. I can't even remember now what was that but what my father said that day gave me panic attack and I was admitted in hospital for that...

He said,
"Why even you born...Such abomination to family..."

I heard it. He had always scolded me. But this...
After that I never become comfortable around anyone. No one felt like home to me. I love my parents, I really love them so much. But after that incident I never had that home like warm feeling around them.

Someone might think why am I overreacting right?
I can't say anything to them because they didn't saw my struggle to adjust in all normal people in my adolescent age or struggle to please my parents who never pleased...
But my parents always saw that but even though they thought my crying, my panic attack and my depression is just drama.

And because of all this I missed my one year. I can't pass my entrance exam. I was depressed at that time. But with my friends help I got pass next year...

My friends,
They know that I am special. But don't exactly know what I am. They were always there when I cried and depressed...
They never left my side...

And when I met Kong that time I again felt that warmth... I felt like I found my home...
Everyone know what happened after that...

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Small chapter...but needed one...

Hope you like this chapter..