Chapter 13
I didn’t feel myself anymore and I’d gone from lying on the bed and falling asleep, to assumingly floating above the bed. What had just happened to me? Had I died? But wait, how did that work, I’d had a baby girl inside of me, had she died too? The hospital nurse told me that she had, but now so had I and I still felt almost alive. My little girl was still inside of me, I knew she was, I could feel her. She couldn’t be gone, not really. I couldn’t have a dead baby girl inside of me, could I?
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“I’m sorry but we’ve lost her.” A stern man in tight trousers and a shirt informed Ryan, at reception of the hospital.
“You can’t have. How the fuck are you running this place?!” Ryan shouted at the man.
“Excuse me sir but there was nothing we could do for your friend, or her baby girl. It was a suicide attempt. Her mother found her and rang an ambulance, we did all we could.” Another slightly more sympathetic man butted in.
“Where’s her mother. I want to see her.” Demanded Ryan.
Ryan was taken to an emergency room where Cam was sat on the end of a hospital bed, in floods of tears.
“Oh my god.” Ryan stopped in astonishment. “How could you try fooling me like that?”
“What?” Cam looked up at Ryan confused.
“Everyone said she was gone. She isn’t gone, she’s right here, safe and sound now.” Ryan explained.
“What are you talking about?” Cam asked.
“Ingrid’s behind you, haven’t you looked?” Ryan diverted his attention to me. “What the hell happened Ingrid? How are you feeling?”
“Don’t worry. I’m okay now.” I said a little shakily. “How come you can see me?”
“Who are you talking to?” Cam sobbed. “My daughter is gone. I don’t think you’re very well son.”
“What do you mean Ingrid? Why wouldn’t I be able to see you?” Ryan sounded confused. “Cam she’s here, Ingrid is here.”
“Ryan, you shouldn’t be able to see me, no one can see me. I’m dead in your world. That’s why Cam can’t see me.” I explained to him.
“Your sick little game isn’t funny Ryan. Ingrid is dead, passed away, gone forever. It’s my entire fault.” Cam cried even harder.
“How’s it your fault?” Ryan asked. “What did you do, she committed suicide.”
Cam explained to Ryan how she had called me and told me about her proposed marriage to Jonas. She also changed her tune and pleaded that she should have thought about my feelings first. I decided this was all an act. She never liked me, not one little bit. I wasn’t hers.
Ryan screamed at her for hours after that. He swore that she would die a horrible death and that she deserved every bad thing that would come her way. I didn’t try to stop him, or tell him that he was wrong. I couldn’t get a word in edge ways.
In the end Ryan was kicked out of the hospital for using abusive language. I followed him and climbed on the back of the motorbike. Neither of us said anything. Ryan was in total shock and I still didn’t understand why Ryan could see me.
“Ryan, that little baby girl is yours. She’s still inside me.” I broke the news to him a little later when we were sat at home.
“I know.” Was all that Ryan said in an emotionless tone.
“I’m sorry Ryan. I couldn’t deal with Cam marrying Jonas. I miss my dad so badly. He still means so much to me and I want to be with him.” I told Ryan.
“I know.” Said Ryan again.
I had to figure out why Ryan could still see and hear me. It was freaking me out. There had to be something that was stopping me from crossing over into the afterlife. Perhaps something that linked me to this world still. That was when it came to me. ‘THE BABY’. My baby girl was still inside me, she wasn’t just my child but also Ryan’s, and whilst she was still inside me, I would be linked to this world via Ryan.
