Oblivion//Pansy X OC

T A T T O O

Lucy Novak
Tw/Abuse

Another dinner with my parents and Conor's.

I sit next to him quietly as our families talk amongst themselves.

Two years.

Two years, that's how long we've been 'dating'

That's how long my parents have forced me to date him.

Last year I realized it was never going to end, I was to marry him, have his children, and be his wife, and housemaid.

It felt awful at first, still kinda does but it's easier if I stop fighting my parents and Conor.

Conor laughed at something his father said, his hand on my thigh gripping me tighter.

I smiled at nothing, I have no idea what we are talking about.

Conor's father stares at me from across the table, I try not to notice his eyes lingering on my chest.

I looked over to my father, his eyes moved from Conor's fathers to my chest. He realized what Conor's father was looking at and didn't care enough to say anything.

I forced back tears as the man across from me stared at my chest, not caring that my mother and father were in the room, or that his wife and son were.

"Excuse me." I stood up, exiting the room.

I headed towards my room, rushing up the stairs as bile rose in my throat.

I threw up in my bathroom, everything I ate at dinner was flushed down the toilet.

I wiped the tears from my cheeks, shaking with anxiety.

I've had a thousand panic attacks, my whole life has been one big panic attack.

Being perfect for everyone fills me with some much anxiety.

I heard my bedroom door open.

I swallowed hard, forcing tears back.

I steady my breathing, taking deep breaths and slowly exhaling before I left my bathroom.

Conor stood in my bedroom, "everyone is wondering where you went."

I stand still, using all my confidence to force a few simple words out.

"I think we should break up." I said quickly,
Conor glared at me.

"What?" He stormed towards me, "is this about that bitch Pansy?" He roughly grabbed my arm, I pulled my arm back.

"No! It's about you touching me like that—."

"You're mine. I'll touch you however I want." Conor growled, pulling me into him.

"It's over, I'm not yours." I tried to stay brave, grabbing his arm and pushing him off me but it didn't work.

"It would be a shame if mommy and daddy found out what a whore their daughter is, a whore she is for another girl." Conor smirked,
My heart dropped.