𝙔𝙤𝙪'𝙡𝙡 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚, 𝙬𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝘾𝙝𝙪𝙪𝙮𝙖? | 𝙎𝙤𝙪𝙠𝙤𝙠𝙪

Chapter 7 (Last chapter!)

Even if he did hear me, he'll probably just continue sleeping. I gave a soft chuckle. I sat up and for the last time, I placed my lips on his while hugging him tightly. "I love you."

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Dazai pov

I roamed the streets of Yokohama for the last time. So many memories were made in this city. Not just with Chuuya, but with the mafia as well. With my subordinates, my friends. They were good times. I'll miss them but, this is for the best. The sun was not yet up but in an hour or so, the sun would slowly start to rise. There weren't that many people on the streets yet. But some were on their way to work. Some shops started to open while some were closing. There were a few early joggers and bikers going for an early start of the day. I made my way through the streets to the old abandoned school. It was in a secluded area so it would be away from someone's sight. I entered the building beside the school and climbed up the stairs. As I climbed, I thought, what would've happened if I lived a normal life? If I wasn't part of the mafia? Would I have lived a better life? No. If I had a choice to go back in time and choose between going to the mafia or living a normal life, I would always choose the mafia. I'd choose to hang out with Ango and Oda. I'd choose to go and take in the Akutagawa siblings. I'd choose to be by Chuuya's side again as his partner. I couldn't live a life without them in it. I have no regrets. This was how it was. I decided what I was gonna do. It doesn't matter if it'll hurt or if I'm scared. This is how it'll end.

 When I made it to the top I made a jump to the building beside it. (The school) I chose this school because of the view. It had a clear view of Yokohama despite being secluded. I used to go here all the time for fresh air. I even brought Chuuya here once. That was when we first met so it was a really long time ago. I made it to the roof and walked near the edge. This was it. What I always wanted. I gave a soft chuckle. I stood on the edge of the building and stretched out my arms as I felt a gush of wind as it passed by me blowing my hair. This was truly amazing. I'm ready. I was about to jump when all of a sudden I could hear someone yelling from a distance. "DAZAI! STOP!!" Chuuya?

Chuuya pov

There, on the very edge of the abandoned school building, ready to jump was the person who I hold so dearly. My vision started to blur as tears fell down my face once more. My chest was hurting and my mind was all fuzzy. I can't breathe. I can't think straight. No. Not yet. "DAZAI! STOP!!" I activated my ability and jumped off the balcony. Heading towards the school building as fast as I could. From afar I could see the brunette turning to face me. I could feel the tears falling down my face flying away as I flew. I landed on the rooftop and ran towards the mackerel. I grabbed his arm and looked down, panting. "Chuuya? What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be asle-" I could hear him saying in a worried voice. "What the f*ck do you think you're doing?!?" I said in an angry tone. Because what the heck? He leaves without a word and now he's trying to f*cking kill himself? I mean that's completely normal of him but this time, I knew if he was gonna do it now... he'd die for real. "Chuuya I'm sure you know better than anyone what I'm doing. I'm doing what I always wanted~" "Why?" I said. Every time I opened my mouth I could feel my chest hurting. I was still crying but I didn't care. I didn't want to see his face right now but I was not letting go of his arm so I squeezed it tighter. "Why do you always want to kill yourself?" ... "*Sigh Chuuya, is there really any value in living?" I finally looked up at him only to be met with cold eyes. He slowly looked away now looking at the horizon. "I don't know what else to do. It's better this way. It doesn't matter if it hurts anymore. So Chuuya, go home. I'll be out of your hair in a little while"

I stood there. Eyes wide open, mouth hanging a bit open in shock of what I heard. If this was a dream, I wanted to wake up. Is he serious right now? "Dazai. Do I really mean nothing to you?" I tried to hide my emotions but it slipped once I started talking. I could feel myself shaking. Desperately holding on to that warmth. Silence "... Chuuya, we are enemies and partners at work. Nothing more, nothing less." Slowly, I could feel my heart breaking. I could feel myself sinking deeper and deeper into the darkness. I chuckled and looked down on the ground again.