Olivia Rodrigo Imagines

baby is you

Olivia's POV:

I sighed as i sat down on my bedroom floor with my guitar.

Y/n and i had broken up a few months ago, but she was the only thing i thought about, she was able to move on so fast.

'it wasn't fair' is what i always told myself.

i tried my best to maybe find someone else even if i didn't truly love them, just to get my mind off of her.

it didn't work.

i started playing the G chord on my guitar, trying to find a picking patterned that soothed my ears.

my mind went back to all the things from our relationship, how she said 'i was the best girl she's ever met'. i scoffed as i thought about that day.

'i guess she never meant it.' i thought as i put my head down on my guitar.

i was so stupid to fall so hard and fast for someone.

here i was once again on my bedroom floor writing yet another song about her though.

i just wanted to move on.

i sat there alone, with my thoughts as i continued to find a good chord progressions.

it took me about 10 minutes before i finally found one i enjoyed and tried to come up with some sort of lyrics.

i looked over at my diary that laid on my nightstand. i placed my guitar down and got up to grab it.

i stood at the nightstand flipping through the most recent entries until i found something that caught my eye.

'baby is still you to me.' i read off the paper, i slowly looked back at my guitar and walked over to it, with my diary still in my hand.

i sat back down and began to write some lyrics down on the paper.

'i know you're with somebody new...' i thought writing it down and taking another moment to think of another line.

'but every song i write is about you.' i wrote down, i stared at my paper, until i scribbled it out not liking the way the two lines felt together.

'but i can't write a song that not all about you.' i thought, i nodded my head and jotted it down.

i went back to how i thought that this wasn't fair and decided to add it into the song.

"it's not fair baby," i sung closing my eyes trying to think of something else.

"how come it's so easy," i continued, "for you to forget the things you said, like how i was 'the best girl that you've ever met..." i stopped to write down the lyrics before i forgot them.

i wrote down the lyrics and looked down at the purple notebook, studying it.

i scribbled out, 'for you to forget the things you said' and replaced the lyrics with 'for you to forget everything you said.' thinking it sounded better.

i was really started to love these lyrics, i reread the lyrics before trying to finish off the verse.

i was stuck on what to write next, i thought about that phrase she told me, and how she never meant it... how she never meant any of it.

'guess you take it back, should have expect that' i wrote down on the paper.

i decided that's how i was going to wrap up this verse but before moving on to the chorus i decided to play it out on the guitar.

i sighed reaching over for my guitar that was next to me.

putting my hand back in the shape of the G chord and played the chord progression i had just came up with.

'i know you're with somebody new, but i can't write a song that's not all about you... it's not fair baby, how come it's so easy, for you to forget everything you said, like how i was 'the best girl' that you'd ever met, guess you take it back, should have expected that..." i sung as i played my guitar.

i smiled as i was proud with the lyrics. i looked back down at my notebook and began the chorus.

y/n's and it's relationship was filled with constant fighting and crying. I always pushed always my feelings by saying i was fine, knowing i wasn't.

i knew that if i were to express some sort of feelings to her, she'd get mad and say i was 'overreacting'

i wiped away some tears that threatened to come out my eyes as i wrote down, 'when i say im fine im lying really well.'

i continued to cry as i wrote down the rest of the thoughts that popped into my head.

'cause i can't love anyone else, and i'm so jealous that you can, scared i'll never feel that again.'

i took a deep breath trying to get composure over myself and trying to continue.

'cause i still can't call anyone baby, cause baby is still you to me, don't you think i wanna move on too? but i can't love anyone the way i loved you.'

i finished writing it down and i was surprised the paper was filled with tears.

i sniffled before grabbing my guitar to play the song, i grabbed my phone out my pocket and wiped away a few more tears so my face ID would actually work.

i opened up the voice memo app and hit record.

i grabbed my guitar and took a deep breath,

"I know you're with somebody new, but i can't write a song that's not all about you it's not fair, baby. how come it's so easy. for you to forget everything you said? like how i was the best girl that you'd ever met, guess you take it back, should've expected that." i stopped for a second before continuing trying not to break down again.

"When i say im fine, im lying really well, cause i can't love anyone else and im so jealous that you can, scared i'll never feel that again. cause i still can't call anyone 'baby', cause 'baby' is still you to me, don't you think I wanna move on, too?
but i can't love anyone thе way..." i stuttered.

"the way i loved you." i sung.

i put down my guitar, looking over at my phone and hitting the stop button.