Did you know you're the reason
I started smoking?I bought my first pack of cigarettes after we had a big fight and you had blocked me.
Marlboro gold,
As it's the cigarettes you always used to smoke.I devoted my whole life to you,
And my whole wellbeing depended on youYou helped me through the worst part of my life;
You build me up when I had no one.
You where there for me in my darkest hoursAnd I think you saved my life when I couldn't carry it myself.
You weren't a good person.
And we always fought.We weren't good for each other.
And strangely I kind of miss what we had.
The most intense friendship.
But we were never soulmates;
We were toxicity in the purest form
And codependencyAnd I know I played my part in this.
We left apart
after you destroyed us both;Crash and burn.
And we will never be the same.
We both moved on
Then you came back into my life
With genuine apologies & shit.
And I know you mean well,
You never wanted to hurt me intentionally;
and I didn't either.I'm pretty sure we played major roles in our lives;
Milestones.And from there on we both changed so much;
Became better peopleBut I don't know if we will ever see each other again
Or if we should.
I'm forever grateful for the times we've spent.
The evenings I stayed at your place
Both of us sitting on the floor
Till the trains started driving again at 5 am.I've always been loving you from a distance
And deep down I still love and care for you deeply
- But we're going nowhere.
And maybe it's time to finally let you go.
I'm proud of the person you've become
And I know you do the same with me.I will always think of you fondly
And I hope the universe treats you well.Goodbye, Leo. It's time//
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