This is what I always admired about you;You were never scared of the darker and more obscure parts of life, it's like you befriended them in a way
On the evening we got together,
You came up with the idea that we should draw each other's bloodBut you were scared of me poking you with a needle,
So you drew your own blood
and I helped youAnd I trusted you with drawing my blood (with a new needle obviously, we took hygiene seriously)
You know,
I'm scared of needles and I have bad veinsSo it's a miracle I trusted you with drawing my blood,
As I don't even trust the doctors to adequately draw my blood without hurting meThis only shows how immensely I trusted you;
I trusted you with my entire body and soul and mind and heartI felt so connected to you on that evening and I know you felt the same
It was right after I had moved out of my parents house into my new flat
There was only you and me
on that bed
in this roomWith neon lights surrounding us
In a way,
you were all I needed back thenJust you and I, being
And you made me the happiest I have probably ever been
So we decided to just be
On that evening
Right after we had this fucked up idea to draw each other's blood
(I never told anyone about this)You were scared of labels so we decided not to decide
To just officially be, on the 3rd of december 2021
This was a beautiful and complex and magical relationship
With the most fascinating person I have ever metI could never forget you
I think meeting you is one of the most important things that has ever happened in my life
The two blood collection tubes with your blood and my blood in it are still stored somewhere in my drawer
You certainly left an imprint in my life and my soul
I'm more than grateful for you staying in my life for so long and being the light that guided me through my darkest hours.
It lasted as long as it possibly could,
We gave all we hadI think it's time to let you go now//
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Memoires of an everchanging spirit
Poetry„Memoir" (french: memory) //unfortunately, I can't turn off the swirling thoughts and memories in my head, but at the same time there is so much I never want to forget this is my life and I want to remember how I felt during these crucial moments w...