Left Alone {magcon}

Chapter 2

People are screaming downstairs when I wake up and check the time, 3:41am. I groan and roll over, listening to who it is. It sounds like my brother and his friends just got home. After dinner my mother and her boyfriend left for two weeks, going to Aruba for a vacation. So it's just me and Jack for the next two weeks, meaning he's going to go and party every night possible for him. I hear someone else yelling for them to shut up and be quiet, realizing that it's Matt.

I get up and open my door, walk to the stairway opening and see someone had fallen in front of the couch and they were laughing. They were all drunk, except Matt. I guess he was the designated driver for the night.

I roll my eyes and walk back to my room as I hear them yelling and laughing continuously, knowing they'll all probably pass out within the hour. I shut my door and lock it as I hear footsteps coming up the stairs.

Someone knocks on my door, and I hear slurring, "Hey Kat, come open the door," it's my brother.

"No Jack, you're drunk. Either go to bed or go back downstairs, please. I'm trying to sleep," I say gently, not trying to make him mad. My brother used to be one of my best friends, and sometimes when he's drunk or high he can be really kind, but other times it can be worse than when he's sober.

I jump as he bangs on my door and yells, "I said open the fucking door you skanky bitch!" I stand on the other side and stay quiet as more footsteps come up the stairs, then I hear matts voice.

"Hey, it's the middle of the night Jack ad you're drunk, she's just trying to get some rest. Come on back downstairs, okay?"

Jack kicks my door then stumbles back downstairs and I bite my lip, looking down as I hear a gentle knock on my door.

Matt sighs and says, "I'm sorry they woke you, I tried to keep them quiet. And Ignore Jack, he's just drunk. He doesn't know what he's saying okay? I'll try to keep them quiet so you can go back to sleep. I really am sorry," and he starts to walk away, as I unlock my door and open it. He hears it and turns back to face me.

"I'm so used to it, you guys are always so harsh towards me just like everyone at school. It's hard to ignore it, especially when it's coming from the one person you used to look up to. And especially since you're worthless in his eyes now," I say, looking down as I start to tear up.

It's so true though, Jack used to be the big brother that would protect me and fight for me when things were bad. He was my hero, my idol. Then when he began to get popular in school he started being a jerk and talking down to me. He acted as if I was scum on the bottom of his shoe and he's acted this way for almost two years now, and everyday it seems to get worse and worse. His hatred for me just continues to grow, and he doesn't even see how much it truly hurts me.

By the time I realize I'm crying, Matt is walking over to me and wraps his arms around me, pulling me into his embrace. He quietly says, "They have no idea how much they're really hurting you, but please know that I won't be that way toward you. If you ever need anything, just shoot me a text. You still have mu number from Chemistry in sophomore year, right?"

I nod before letting go of him and mumbling, "Thank you Matthew. It means a lot to me."

He gives me a soft smile before walking back downstairs and I shut my door, locking it. I'm still crying, as I walk into my bathroom and shit the door, locking it as well.

I open my medicine cabinet and fiddle around until I find what I'm looking for, a blade.

Once I find it, I stand in front of the mirror and turn the water on, letting tears stream down my cheeks as I push my sleeves up and put the blade to my wrist, sliding it across feeling the slight burn as it slices through my skin.

"I'm worthless," I say quietly to myself, crying as I mark myself more and more, letting the blood drip into the running water. I push it further into my skin each time, until I feel I've done enough harm to myself and I clean up, putting my blade back where I kept it and watch as my wrists bleed, and as the blood dries I pull my sleeves back down and walk out of the bathroom, laying back down. I wipe my tear stained face and sniffle as I pull my blanket back over myself.

I close my eyes and drift off to sleep.

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I wake up to the smell of freshly brewed coffee, stretch and yawn as I check my phone for the time. 9:22am.

Sunlight beams through my curtains and I stand up, stretching a bit more before walking downstairs and toward the kitchen.

As I walk through the living room, I see all the boys passed out on different places on the couch and floor, aside from one. Matthew.

I walk into the kitchen to see him shirtless with only basketball shorts on, pouring himself a cup of coffee. His hair is flat against his forehead, different from the usual quiff he always has it in. He notices me and smiles, saying, "Good morning. I hope you don't mind that I made some coffee, I usually have a cup or two in the mornings."

I shake my head and get a mug from the cabinet and pour myself a cup as well, adding a little bit of creamer and sugar to mine. He takes a sip from his, and looks back at me and clears his throat.

"So, uh, how'd you sleep? I know they were pretty loud last night, I'm still sorry abought that," he says, breaking the silence.

I shake my head again, "It's not your fault so you have no reason to be sorry. I slept okay I guess, with the few hours I got. Did you get any sleep?"

He shrugs, "Kind of, I watched the sunrise after all the guys crashed then went to Jack's room and slept for a few hours, and now I'm here making some coffee."

"Well, was the sunrise at least pretty?"

He smiles, "It was gorgeous, I love watching the sunset and the sunrise, those are the most beautiful times of the day."

I nod and smile in agreement, he was right. We live in L.A, close to Venice so we can see the ocean from our bonus room balcony. The sunrise was always so pretty over it, I loved watching it rise too. I used to stay up every summer just to see it.

Maybe this kid isn't as bad as the others.

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A/N- chapter 2 is edited. enjoy! please vote & comment!
-Z