Left Alone {magcon}

Chapter 5

Jack J pov.

I sigh knowing that Kat hates me, I know I've been so hateful toward her. Honestly, I don't know why I started being so hateful toward her anymore. I just wish it could change to be like things used to, where me and her were practically inseparable. All the memories of me and her having together, all the things we enjoyed together. We always had each other's backs and I always protected her from everything.

I never thought I'd end up being the one to hurt her more than anyone else, and it's crazy to think that I really am. I just, I never wanted to be the one to hurt her or cause her more pain than anyone else. She's my little sister.

I sigh, pulling my phone out to text the groupchat with all the boys in it.

J: Guys, we gotta talk. Come over to my place asap
Shawn: I'm a little busy, I got someone over to work with me on some music.
Hayes: Yeah, I'll be there soon man
Taylor: Of course dude I'm on my way now.
Nash: Uh sure?
G: I'm literally in the car next to you, you could've looked at me and said something lmao
Matt: I guess
Sam: Sure thing broski
Aaron: I'm LITERALLY in your driveway WAITING FOR THIS TEA 
Nate: Lemme smoke then I'm omw 
Cam: Gotcha, heading there now
Carter: On my way brother

I chuckle at a few of the responses and look over at G, who's scrolling through Instagram. I get out of the passenger seat and walk to the door, unlocking it and going inside. Walking inside and plopping down on the couch to wait for everyone else to get here.

Kat's not here, so I'm assuming she's at the park skating or at the mall. Either way, I really hope she's okay.

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Katie's pov.

I wake up, someone's arms wrapped around my waist. I can see out of the curtains in a window next to the bed I'm in, the sun is setting with a pink and orange glow in the sky. Smiling, I turn and see Shawn with his arms around me, snoozing away and hugging me close.

I move out of his grip gently, trying not to wake him and pick my phone up off of his nightstand. There are several missed texts from Hayes just as well as a few missed calls from him and Matthew, too. I furrow my brows, confused as I hear a moan from Shawn as he begins to wake up. I sit on the edge of the bed, running my hand through his hair.

He opens his eyes, seeing me and a smile forming on his face as well as a slight blush. He yawns and wraps his arms around me, pulling me back down next to him and I let out a giggle. I sit up and pull my sweater off, leaving me in a tee-shirt, sheer tights, and shorts. He runs his fingers along my arm, tracing my skin when he all of a sudden stops, leaving me confused before he pulls my arm over, causing me to lay on my back.

My eyes widen as he sees my wrist with all the marks I've put on myself and my scars. He looks at me with sadness in his eyes and after a moment finally speaks, "Kat- I- Why?"

I sigh, pulling my arm away and breaking away from our connection. "I just, you don't understand. It feels like everyone is against me so why shouldn't I be against myself too?" Saddening by my words, I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

"I never would've thought, Kat I'm so so sorry, please don't do this again, please talk to me. I'm always here for you, I promise. I know I haven't always been there but I am now and I will be forever, I promise I will.

I shake my head, "Shawn you don't understand, really you don't. You were one of the people making fun of me for a long time too, and yes I forgave you because I know you don't have a mean damn bone in your body but you were one of the people who caused me to hate myself too. You're no exception to any of this because you were a factor, too. Maybe I need to go home. give you some time to think and give myself some time to think, too."

Getting up, I grab my sweater and pull it back over my arms as I grab the rest of my stuff, leaving quickly before he has a chance to stop me. He chases me down the stairs, begging for me to wait but by the time he reaches the bottom of the stairs, I'm already out the front door. I grab my board and quickly ride home from his house.

I bite my lip as I reach my house and kick my board up into my hand, walking to my porch. I notice that all the guy's cars are here and sighing as I open the door to see everyone sitting there, no one talking. They all turn and look at me, Jack has been crying and so has a few others I notice. I stand there as Jack stands up, walking to me and wrapping his arms around me. 

He's hugging me, for the first time in years. I stand there, tensed up and shocked at his motion before hugging him back. I begin to relax in his arms, closing my eyes and resting my head on his chest as I mumble, "I missed this, I miss us being so close Jack, you have no idea."

He kisses the top of my head and he lets go, walking over and taking a seat on the couch. He leaves room for me and I sit down as well, leaning against him as people start apologizing.

I shake my head, everyone growing quiet and I stand back up after a few moments, telling everyone goodnight, and walking upstairs to my room. I lay down on my bed and close my eyes, finally drifting off to sleep.

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A/N- chapter 5 officially edited, enjoy! please vote & comment!
-Z