Cw: throwing up, drinking
--Travis pov--
Where was he? It was getting late. I bounced my leg and checked the time
1:38 am
He should've been home hours ago. I couldn't complain though, I liked the quiet of the house. I just knew he wouldn't be happy when he did arrive. My head felt dizzy, I wasn't quite myself.
"Why are you here?"
I wasn't really here. "I belong here," I responded.
"No you don't. You belong there." I looked up, my surroundings changed to wendigo lake. I was back in Nockfell, the memory of this place was hazy. If I looked around, some parts were unfinished. White blank spaces randomly placed around the image.
Why would I belong there?
"I shouldn't be here" I whispered
"You shouldn't be here" the voice echoed.
"Son? What are you doing?" He was here. I heard him behind me, I didn't bother to face him.
I didn't speak. I couldn't speak. The words stopped in my throat.
"You still can't face me. What did I do to get a son like you." He scoffed. I didn't feel his presence any longer.
Those words echoed around me. Whatever, I was used to them. It's funny, the more they're said the less they affect you. Sure, it used to hurt. It used to be the only thing I thought about, I tried so hard to be better. I tried to make him be proud of me, even if it was a lie.
But now?
I despised his approval. He didn't affect me anymore. He didn't affect me.
I told myself he didn't affect me. I don't want him to affect me. He was shitty, I've accepted that. He used me against myself. I know that.
"Are you sure?" Somebody said beside me. I looked over to the figure. "You're getting worse."
I knew there was someone there but I couldn't see them. I felt like I knew them, but they were still far away.
"I know, I can't do much about it. I'm getting better." The person laughed. It was a sweet, low laugh. My chest tightened, I haven't felt this in a while.
It was nice.
"Wouldn't it had been nice? You chose the wrong path." I looked out to the lake. I saw my younger self.
He was drowning, struggling, panicking. I sat and watched, I couldn't bring myself to move. I'm fine, he's not. But I'm okay.
The figure laughed again. "You could have been so much happier had you chosen correctly."
I was left alone, staring at the empty lake.
Maybe this was how it was supposed to end.
//
I heard something ringing in my ears, I couldn't figure out where it came from. What happened? I slowly opened my eyes and adjusted to the light.
I was sprawled across my bed, phone in hand.
"Woof!" I heard heavy breathing and whining. He jumped onto my bed and licked my face. I flinched at the sound and sighed.
"Okay okay, I know jeez." I pushed Bea away. He layed down and continued pawing the bed and whined. I groaned, I didn't want to get up yet but I had to.
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You Can't Heal Me-salvis
FanfictionFuture au, kinda a vent story so Cw: drinking, sex mentions, drugs mentions, self hate, s/a implications . . Idk some extra info- -Takes place 7 years after "the bologna incident" -Travis works as a bartender in a club, Sal is unemployed, Larry is...